I am tired

no one knows that my hair is dyed yet so i guess that's good....but i talked with my parents to see if i could convince him to either kick me out or support me..i thought i could prove to him i am trans, but he wouldn't even let me speak my opinions. He said "that you need to get your head out of the clouds and stop pretending to be a boy".he said you'll never be a real boy, no matter what surgeries or medicine"he also said,"school is what i need to focus on, not what i am feeling" he said "I don't want to talk about this ever again, because when you are 18 and living in a different house, then you can be a freak".. i have never felt so weak before..I am tired.