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idk what i'm supposed to feel or even do anymore... there is so much i want to do but i just can't get up

from this slump, i feel so empty yet i always feel like i'm gonna cry?? and i'm always just stuck right here..

i'm so jealous of everyone who's doing better than me, they have jobs and earning money and i'm trying!!! i want 

to help my family but there's just this dread that i'll just be stuck in a never ending loop, and i know everyone's fine witj that because it's their job but i can't stand it!! i hate repetition, i don't want to interact with other people i just want to be alone... i want to get away somewhere where there's no one who can control what i do and make me feel like a shit in their shoe!!!

i hate myself so much for being like this... why did i just not end it all when it was so bad already.

my family's fucksd up , i'm fucksd up and i don't know how to fix myself, how to function like a normal human being 

i just wanf out of here, i rlly just want it to stop hurting, i want my head, stomach and chest to stop hurting i haye it here