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in this entry, what differenciates myself as an individual to the others, particularly translated in the way i express myself in beauty and fashion (in a cute, concious, and connected way)

but real quick, how am i using the word individual?

what it doesn't mean. (≧◇≦)乂 NO!

X hyperindependence 

X first house placement person (guys..... i'm a libra rising... and more... but that's all you need to know.)

X i sadly also don't mean like.... self sufficient... 

what i mean!

O simply, what makes me me in it's truest form, with all the nuance precisely coming together in beautifully, almost mathematical ways, referencing metaphysical structures such as human design and even astrology and cognitive functions

now that we have the definition of individual out of the way, lets get into it!

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..... sometimes it personally feels really easy to lose oneself in all the associations that make up what is similar to your style. maybe you relate? 

for example. I am really sensitive to nuances and .... dare to say, unspoken rules online. as much time i take by myself to see what i truly resonate with and what isn't for me, once I come back onto the digital space, I immediately feel overtaken by this sense of "conditioning", as would be said in human design terminology. 

Not used as with abuse in mind, but simply a part of the human experience, as long as you are coexisting with others.

i would say , the algorithm is a medium of conditioning, even if its just numbers and data. the way a website is built and it's programing (the conceptual structuring, the functions that are executed, and what problems or demands are being solved which is the foundation that we then navigate ourselves under as internet users... enviroment shapes us)....

 another example, an influencer is conditioning, not implying good or bad. it just is a part of humans. maybe you could also say influencing right, but i am using conditioning because it embodies a sort of affection that seeps into you, and moves you. not moving as in, touches your heart, but it moves you, in a motor, and cognitive way.... does that make sense? （*´▽｀*）anyone else feel this sensitive on the internet? #feelingcognitition_hd #line5_hd

not everyone is like me, but most people do respond to their enviroment, wether you have also had a lot of time to curate who you are, or try and learn about yourself so you can be more true to yourself, most of the population will still naturally.... feel this force to conform.... i think. this is sad to say, but due to things like algorithm, sometimes, what filters exist can make the other parts of you feel invisible. some things can be generalized, one size fits all.

This comes in using existing formats. me personally, i feel a little bored and sad about the way everyone "talks the same" and makes similar points, has similar structures, has same streams of logic or thought. 

Of course, we should all be united about everything regarding human rights, about life and respecting nature.

But are we all really the same? (short common sense answer... of course not.) Will most people be phd in analysis video pilled?will the pink gyaru bow girlies only be winter girlies, or jp-> fetishizing hawaii coconut summer girl, or reiwa babymetalclub shushucherry ?

what is my nuance? what is my bloom season? how do my inner circuits connect? so you thought it all runs the same? maybe our physical body does in a way! but mentally.. .

 common sense says we all grew up different, and have different backgrounds, so how can we be the same? but i feel in some ways, the way a lot of us are living is all very similar, but not in a good way. in a way of lack, and thats not something to blame on anyone, but i think staying true to ourselves is the one thing we can do, and keep evolving in your own way, connect to what is beautiful to you.

how will you honor who you are? how will you accentuate the beauty of you?

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now! i will get into me! enough of talking for everyone!! (♡´艸`)

what do i wish to make clear to everyone? what differenciates me? #generatormustdothings

1. i am not a northern hemisphere winter girl! or generally a northen hemisphere girl....

in some platforms, i find it easy to find the girlies who grew up/make references to climate in north america, north asia, or europe living for more cool, pink winter girl looks. There is nothing wrong with this, but this is not me at all! I am not one of you guys. Even though it's beautiful, I am a Hong Kong /Northern-Central Phillipines enviroment girl. 

My climate is humid, foggy days and lots of greenery. Generally more of a "balanced" climate, on the warm side. 

Did you know that depending where you are born in (north/south or center), this can affect the way your chart in astrology is structured? Even in terms of climate obviously, when you think about it, your climate and enviroment influences your psychology! 

If you live closer to the north or south pole, that would mean you would have less sunshine and more cold days, which means that your people (ancestors... and way of life influences culture... even individual culture and ways of life) would need to really make the most of the limited warm days you have to get all that you need, followed by more time where you have to keep warm, dream, make stories, stay inside or bundled up. But once the time comes to go out again, there seems to be far more sense of fire to push through, there is this relationship with having to keep yourself warm, the way your cheeks get red etc... #capital #capricorn_wintersigns_aries...as an archetype and common associations of those signatures (signs)

Whereas my experience with being in tropical enviroments is more that there is abundance all year round, there is balance, there is not so much need for innitiation, everyone has enough. I like being light on my feet, to add further nuance, i like the palenke/markets in hong kong and manila soso much. There is this feeling of more accessibility to my personally desired niche resources almost every day of the year. you go out, more days you can play (metaphorically..... lets make it a reality T_T) you can just pluck a mango from the tree in your garden. it's sweet.. 

so, now that you have read this, don't imagine me in some sort of north-western cottage... imagine I'm in one of those tiny (but beautiful.....) apartments in a capital city in either hk or tokyo.......... imagine me in the malls or in the markets and most of all.... imagine my enviroment to be tropical. this is, of course, a romantisization of an area, but don't we all need to romantisize?

1.5 also like. chinese and hk and jp and viet, thai, etc grunge y2k was better than american y2k.. ofc western y2k was very much in asia aswell but still my point stands. and also experiencing the 2010s in asia was better lols (acc aussi land (ausland not german aussi pronounciation) was rlly fun with peppermayo colonizer purple rose surfer two-piece beach girl

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♡  ♡  i am not gyaru, lolita.... but i love lapafait and jesusdiamante and old mars

don't feel like explaining this a lot but... rules are needed for beauty, but i resonate more with intuitive rules. not overly rigid and mental..... like.... good rules: what shapes your values even if you have different personal internal seasons ; "bad" rules: rigid goals and routines you must follow every single day... i love freedom and curation and being light. and flexible and very specific to myself #gate35

2.5 point five point cus i don't want to explain, but I am not a brown color girl...... not a bambi girl... no warm lighting girl.. but if some others do it i fw it, just not for me

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♡  ♡ i am a 50/50 of esoteric spirituality girl and also kawaii/cute fashion girl

I think there is a certain representation of oneself if you relate to being one or the other more. i actually have had some oomfs tho who are both and i fw you!!!!!!! yall are so cool. big example online is walkingintrusivethought!! She is so real. OMG ALSO SHOUTOUT TO THEHEADLESSSTAR girl she is my southeastasian esoteric magical girl representative

but basically, my personality is not having big googly eyes and having zero thoughts (no but misstada ate that up... not the temu haul tho sad)

but it's also not white girl adventurer sun emoji aesthetic makes esoteric sprituality digestible (but i am half lols). it has a certain look and feel... if you know... if it's real for you respect, but it's not for me.

being an esoteric spiritual girl to me looks more like being a magical girl, but not cosplay-ish, high quality or more minimal items mixed with cute lapafait or lizlisa pieces if im feeling cute. i'm a foggy/slight cool/slight warm city with tropical nature girl (hk....) 

honourable mention, 2000s magical toys. in hong kong, it mostly had everything imported from either china or japan, and we did have the cute stuff over there and cute anime... so instead of being a crystal tumble (not tumblr lol) girl, we have the heart plastic flashing stick, ideally though with a real crystal, made with love #future manifesting

that's all for my yap! i love girls who just talk and have very specific opinions (shoutout kat aka onionsarleng and ash callenham cus they got their chronically online metaphysical phd in fashion internet esoteric remix degree. there are more cool girls out there tho ). lets have a little less common sense when it comes to fashion, but esoteric sense <3 ଯ( ॢᵕ-ᵕ)ॢഒ

hope my next one is better. the thoughts in my head feel cooler but idk where those thoughts are now... i might talk about something even more specific, crisscross a human design "placement" (could be a gate or channel or something) with beauty