i feel weird (sort of vent?)

I feel really weird right now about my future and further education.

I've been doing my first year of college and I'm not doing too well in one of my subjects. The college won't let me swap just one of my subjects, I would have to start all three subjects of the course again, when the new term starts. I'm heavily considering dropping out of college and finding an apprenticeship. I've got an interview for one near where I live on Monday, which I hope works out.

I'm conflicted because I would feel happier doing the apprenticeship, as it's in a field that I'm more interested in, and I would get a salary too which is a nice bonus. But on the other hand, I feel like I will miss out on the 'college experience' and that I would look back and wish I would have continued because of the community and friends that I get to hang out with every day.

I'd also feel bad for one of my friends which I've known since the start of high school if I drop out because he doesn't talk to anyone in the classes other than me.

It's sort of a mix between my fomo, and wanting to do something that suits me better.

This whole ordeal could just be my fomo the whole time, as I tend to overthink about everything, all the time no matter who it involves or what situation.

Anyway, thanks for reading my brain dump. It feels nice to get this all out to at least somebody. (all my closest friends are on holiday at the moment and one doesn't get back til next saturday, and the other the sunday after that)