Miserable

I know I'm not 100% alone, but I don't feel connected to anyone at the moment. I know I don't need to be some level 20 bard master of charisma to talk with people properly, but I really wish being outgoing was my thing.

I don't know how to put my own thoughts into words when I'm talking sometimes. When I do know, I talk really quickly for 20 minutes (or more) on end. Every single slip-up makes me feel like I'm walking on a really thin tightrope that's about to snap.

How do (some) people want to be all this? You know. Those people who act like being "shy" (It's not just being shy.) is quirky. I was nearly this close to being considered non-verbal in my early childhood (Up to 7) because I rarely spoke. I got held back a year in preschool. PRESCHOOL.

Something about the possiblity of me having writing issues, as well as many other issues in elementary. Those bullshitters had a 99% of being wrong, because my handwriting was always good. I even got praised for it a few times by teachers.

Well, enough of me rambling like a babbling bobblehead. Toodle-loo!