Blue

Blue.

You showed up one day when I felt blue

Didn't know what to say or what to do

Didn't want to think hard about anything

I just went with the flow, let the wind do its thing

You made me smile from ear to ear,

Something I hadn't done in over two years.

What does it mean? What should I do?

Right now I don't feel quite as blue.

My mind is quiet and I can breath again

The pain in my chest seems to have lessened.

I don't feel bad, I don't feel sad, the sky seems less gray, I feel less mad.

I'm quite content, feel less need to vent.

What does it all mean? What should I do? Somehow with you I feel slightly less blue. Not full of love, not full of hate, but a feeling that's new, something tranquil and great.

Because of my past my heart is wrapped in a shield, scared to commit, scared to fully feel. Not wanting to feel like death again, I hold back my love I hide my hands. I'm trying to find myself again. I feel much more like me but this is not the end. I love that you're here, no, really I do. With you I feel slightly less blue. I love you, I like you, I thank you soo much.

I'm scared of messing up, of not being enough. The shadow of my past sort of has me stuck. Cannot fully give all of my heart away, but here I lay. One day...

I'm happy to smile, to feel like this.

Happy for hugs and happy to kiss. Happy for hand squeezes and moral support, for you wiping my tears, making me soup, for listening, caring. Thank you.

Thanks to you the sky is less gray, the clouds seemed to have all been whisked away. Thanks to you I feel slightly less blue.