wasted summer, yet again?

mostly because i always have, and mostly because i'm in highschool! these summers are, like, supposed to be so fun and magical and the BEST summers you'll ever have but i've already spent one out of my four completely inside. 

to be fair, i didn't spend it ~COMPLETELY~ inside. i went outside, maybe uh... maybe like three times? 

 

and this summer, while a little bit better with the going outside part (i've went outside SIX times and it's only july!), it's still not good! 

i've been trying to plan things but my plans keep falling through. i keep trying to go on walks but it's so oppressively hot outside!! my one goal this year was to go to the pool (as i haven't been in two years) and i don't even have a swimsuit!!!!!! 

i feel like maybe i'm overplaying it a bit. summer is supposed to be a time of rest and relaxation away from school, not of stressing out trying to funmax or something. 

i'm just gonna tell myself that it's social media's fault for making it seem like everyone is having more fun than me and making more memories than me, and secretly we're all in the same boat of freaking out about what we're going to do with our last few weeks of summer.