its not that scary actually

so i actually got a lot of work done yesterday and 2day.... it only took a couple hours...

i was so worried and scared, over nothing rlly, but everytime i tried to start working i'd get so stressed out just at the sight of that google doc

but

it rlly wasnt that much work

i was worrying myself awake all night over nothing

how many times has that applied? ive been so so scared and backed out, but whatever it was i missed, turned out 2 b Not That Deep?

i think a part of that is fueled by my tech addiction. studying or working or whatever isnt exactly a dopamine boost, and thats y im steering clear of it

god, if i didnt have summer school, i wld be at the gym, riding my bike, getting high, drawing, writing, all that good shit

but instead im stuck in school, burnt out and tired

sigh....