Hypocrisy

It truly infuriates me when I try making friends with people who whine and cry about being lonely (because I relate to this sentiment) and they just... act like I'm a nuisance? Say it to my fucking face that you don't care, that you don't want to talk to someone like me. Jeez, I KNOW I'm someone very uncomfortable to be around to. I KNOW I'm a rude, pushy, obsessive, possessive, manipulative person who struggles with empathy and guilt but just TELL ME, ughh.

I want friends (as in, people I actually interact with, and they interact back, DUH) because I LOVE having friends and sharing things with people I like. My friends all have a place in my heart and I get quickly involved into their lives because I CARE for them. I want to see them grow, be happy... I just NEED to have many friends because that's how I am (also loneliness makes me suicidal).

I feel like giving up. I feel like I'm invisible or cursed lmao.