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forewarning: if you're a religious person this is probably going to piss you off
I'll never understand religion. I mean I understand it, but I feel like I'll never truly get it. When I was younger I went through a.. "Christian Phase". So, I was raised by my mom and memere(grandma) who are both atheists so I was raised non-religious. However, for awhile my Great Grandma lived with us and she was Christian. As a kid I had just gotten a grasp on my own mortality and I feared my death, so I allowed my G.Gma to influence me and I started praying & being a believer for a bit.
Until I realized something.
I was only believing in this shit because I WANTED to
even at eight I knew the concept of God was such utter bullshit the only way anyone could ever believe in it was via choice. Active denial of the truth and sheltering your own mind. I could never live like that. My memere is really into science and stuff so she always tried to teach me how the world works and why. The world is so fascinating, it's already filled with so much magic I don't know why anyone feels the need to put any deeper reasoning or meaning behind it. "But someone had to have created it all," and how do you know that? How do you know this world couldn't have come into existence all on it's own? Our universe has existed since the beginning of time as we know it-- it is the existence of time itself. People who choose to believe in God only do it to make living in such a complex world easier for them. They're people who lack the intelligence to challenge their mind by thinking about something they didn't think was possible.
All these people want is some comfort- maybe someone really did create me in their image- with a beautiful plan for my life and when I die, all the good things I did will finally pay off. But that's just fiction. These people can't handle how Godless our world truly is. And that is such a beautiful thing to me. None of us have any purpose, there's no creator watching us, we all choose for ourselves. We choose kindness and selfishness for us, not how some heavenly father will condemn us. After we die, who knows what will happen? Probably nothing. And that's beautiful. An existence full of heartache, love, loss and decisions all wrapped up in a bow. Closure.
But I guess some people are too wrapped up in their vision of what life "is" that they can't take a moment to step outside their own beliefs and maybe consider that there's a better explanation for this all. What are you doing for yourself by believing in a book that was only written to control your actions? What are you gaining from letting it control you? The only thing you're doing is robbing yourself of the ability to think a little deeper, to analyze all sectors of life, to wonder why it all developed this way. Not because of one big creator but because on Earth, all things move and change for themselves.
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dollface4
I am studying Slavic Paganism so I can practice it fully someday, as I believe in it. However, I do understand your delimea. People tend to take their religion way too far, and refuse to even look into genuine, backed research. Especially in the topic of evolution (which I firmly believe did in fact take place. The prehistoric humans and their ancestors are very much concrete proof of it, at least from what I believe). I think a lot of the issue, though, is concious. We, as a species, have a very complex, multi-dimentional brain that can ponder the afters of death, and the befores of life. This alone is enough to scare anyone into begging for a chance to stay alive for an eternity. Afterall, we, like everything else on this world, want, collectively, biologically, to survive. Survival is the life we live currently, death is the absense of all and everything we have and are currently, presumably. These religions, or rather, beliefs, have been around even in prehistoric times, such as ‘bad spirits’ causing headaches, so on so fourth (correct me if I’m wrong there. I do believe that was an estimated guess given by researchers). Given that, if true, we can assume they themselves had a belief system, although very underdeveloped in comparison to more large groups or shorter lived belief systems, I’d assume.
This is typically why religions exist, and even if someone truly, wholeheartedly believed with every atom in their body, not a doubt in their mind - science does have a way of debunking many parts of major religions - such as Christianity (especially Christiaity).
To preface, this is no hate to religious, nor non religious people. No hate to any specific groups. Just simply my speculations.
Many religion’s rulebooks are typically set vertues of a certain time period’s pleas, or just genuine wishes for betterments of society. Anyone who fails to meet said requirements of the book or rules, has done a wrong thing, can be called many things, sin, haram, etc.
Religion often is based on the betterment of society, but has devolved so much into just. A plea for eternity without genuine effort. That is another big pointer to make.
I do get why people would restrict themselves to a books values, though. As most tend to explore good deeds, behaviors, etc. I wouldn’t say most hold much harm - as the words are in the eyes of the one’s who read them, and their implications are up to the mind that thinks them.
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cowboysversion
this is so real actually especially since I get psychosis so ppl don't realize how differently I view religion, and its almost a threat to me. I have a relationship with god, but I can never tell if its ME, or a part of being psychotic. during church, I prayed to be respectful, but it physically felt like my brain was being opened and looking into. I've never felt that before. so idk what my standpoint is.