terrified and never touching reddit again.

[not a doompost or intended to be; i'm merely ranting]

so. before you look at me crazy and question why i even HAVE reddit, i really don't.

i made an account to ask if this corrupted harddrive of mine with like 800+ MP3s on it had a virus because i am by NO means a computer nerd and had zero idea who else to ask/where else to look.

all i was going to do was go to a necessary subreddit and ask that question. got my answer, left.

this morning i was feeling Particularly dysphoric. i used to have a slight bit of peach fuzz growing in, and all of a sudden, it's completely gone. 

i've never shaved my face ONCE.

so i thought "ok, why don't i go to reddit or some site to ask people what to do about it, or at least vent?"

the first fucking post i see is basically telling me "we're all gonna die!" as if i haven't already freaked out about that recently THIS MONTH

i keep scrolling. trying to look for at least ONE poster that quells my already rampant worries and the mental image of certain death.

i find one! cool!

i keep fucking scrolling.

is this it? is this what doomscrolling is? how the fuck do people willingly sit down and Do this? 
how do you not immediately explode from the already terrifying reality we live in?

i'm sorry for the abrupt change in tone and inconsistent posting. maybe i'm spiraling as i write this and will regret posting later, but at the moment, one thing is Made Clear.

never again will i browse reddit for jack shit. 

i think i'd actually keel over and die, my hair running white after ONE look at a post telling me what horrific shit's going on in this/a different country.