25 jul 2025

Do not get high guys.

First time high I guess yesterday and I swear I just wish I could forget it but oh my god. That was so weird because like at first like I was sitting down and then the world was like moving but like without me like I'm lighter but I'm also not like I could not fucking feel my feet dude and like I was looking around because it was so weird. Then I think in a park the world suddenly was so BUEATIFULL like I was abt to shed tears of how beautifull it was and then I ACTUALY CRIED BECAUSE OF A STUPID DUCK. "Oh my god no that's so sad he shouldn't have died" LITTERLY ME CRYING OVER A DEAD DUCK. Like what. Why the heck was crying like I couldn't control myself from crying or like laughing dawg and then I start yapping to my friend bro. I swear. Embarrassing asf bc like. I WAS YAPOING LIKE HECK. At those moments I needed to shut up so I was like dude I'm so sorry BRO I WANTED TO KILL MYSELF AT THAT MOMENT. Like i looked like a crazy person dawg. I swear. And then I was like oh my god am I going to rmeebr all this. Yes. Yes I do. And I wish I dint. But like it was so weird like I couldn't control myself like I was conscious but like I couldn't control myself dawg. IT FELT LIKE I WAS ASLEEP. how the HECK am I suppose to relax when I cant even control myself.