The back to school feeling is pure insanity.

I AM NOT COPING WELL WITH THE FACT THAT AUGUST IS SOON.

I'm not ready at all, I mean, I'm going to a very important year this August and pretty much have all advanced this year, EVEN ART (idk even know how I got this).

And even worse, I've heard they're making us wear gym uniforms in my school, so basically I'm going to suffer even more (YAYYY!!!,) but still I'm not ready to head back, like I mean, let's be forreal, everyone it's JUL 24  MEANING IN LIKE A SINGLE WEEK IT WILL BE AUGUST BACK TO SCHOOL this summer was probably the most boring and fastest summer ever It was hot outside BURNING HEAT and just pure suffering if you had to do something other than having fun out there and don't get me started on whatever things you could have fun this summer with IT WAS JUST NOTHING IN MY DARN CITY JUST PURE NOTHING! and your telling me this summer break is almost over in less than like 30 days hello? I am NOT READY.

to be hearing all that loudness at like 8 or 7 in THE DAMN MORNING BRO. And I'm just going to keep it simple and short. I hate school, I hate it with all my heart. It has been the cause of all my suffering in life, all my worries, fear, tiredness, Sadness, and anger. MOST OF THIS HAS BEEN BECAUSE OF THE RESULTS OF SCHOOL. I don't want to be waking up every SINGLE DARN DAY AT 6am OR EVEN EARLIER TO BE AT THAT WACK SCHOOL WITH PEOPLE AROUND ME WHO WILL BE SOME OF THE MOST EVIL AND I MEAN EVIL PEOPLE YOU WILL MEET IN YOUR LIFE AND TEACHERS WHO WILL BE THE MOST EVIL OR EGO HIGH OR JUST WACK OR JUST A MIX OF ALL THREE (But sometimes you MAY get that fire teacher i loved my 7 grade teachers they were FIRE) but still i ain't ready I'm not happy to be going back to all that suffering it's legit just going to be pure suffering for me all the time.

I ain't ready for that "Just make it till Friday" mindset once again, just to have the worst thoughts on a Sunday night before I had to go to school the next morning.

I ain't ready to hear that alarm going off and off every morning, and the sudden lights coming on and the chaos of getting ready for school every morning.

I'm not ready for the horrible lunch or the food that's barely edible they will be feeding us every day at lunch time, and the total chaos of lunch time every single darn lunch period.

I ain't ready for the darn homework they're going to be throwing at us EVERY NIGHT like damn are these teachers just WANTING us to not get sleep gotta give homework the day you start learning something and then get surprised when no one get it LIKE YOU HAVE BARELY GOT THE BASICS TEACHED TO US AND YOU WANNA GIVE ME THREE IXLS DUE BY 10 AM THE NEXT DAY?? FUCK YOU.

I ain't ready for those bs group project's especially since I barely have friends sometimes in classes like teach wydm, we got like 30 requirements and it's due by Thursday???, and I gotta find a group? And then the teacher either tells me to work by myself or they place me in a random group of friends, and it feels awkward because they're all TALKING TO EACH OTHER LIKE THEY CAN'T HEAR YOU WHEN YOU'RE TRYING TO TALK ABOUT THE PROJECT AND TRYING TO ACTUALLY GET WORK DONE. (FREE ME FROM THIS HELL✌😂)

and don't get me started on the hell of having people who will annoy you or some random ass girl who you gotta sit next to in 3 period on some "We friends right????" as you're trying to do some work all because you're the school's quote on quote "Nerdy and geeky quiet Emo kid" i genuinely wish the worst on people whenever this BULLSHIT HAPPENS TO ME i genuinely get the urge to blow my shi smooth off everytime or you got people clowning on your music taste if it's alternative or something they don't like or someone they find trash. And you start getting painted as someone who SH WHEN YOU DONT BECAUSE ITS A STUPID STEREOTYPE THAT IS PLAIN WRONG GOD I DONT WANNA GO BACK TO SCHOOL IS AUGUST.

(DO NOT BE A BLACK SCENE KID IN VA WORST DECISION OF MY LIFE BEWARE :,-)...)

But even if school is trash at times, I do say there are fun times in school and the good times, which I enjoy especially (First quarter and 4 quarter). I enjoy the fall mornings with the leaves falling all around as you enter school or as you're driven to school or the few last months of school with the class getting funnier and the teachers getting chiller with the rules and just getting a fresh breath of air after all the finals and state tests i enjoy goofing off with my friends at times i enjoy the long talks i get with my friends in gym class i love the random inside jokes with the classes i get. The fun moments whenever it's a class game, when someone wins, and the chaos that follows after. The random times around the year when something crazy happens that gets remembered all year, and sticks even years after the event took place, sometimes the random pizza or ice cream party in the year, going to the school library, and chilling. Eating in the classroom. The first day of school chaos. Watching a random show on your Chromebook after getting work done. that feeling after getting a high grade on something you thought you wouldn't get. Making a new friend with someone you've been wanting to be with. Art class with the teacher being the very best in the whole school. And sharing snacks with your friends in the back and chilling after the work is done.

So even if I may have some worries, I am pretty excited to see what this school year is going to be like for me. I'm excited to see all my friends this year, once again this year, after how fun last year was for me last grade, even if I did slack off a bit that year. But I am kinda excited for the first day of school this year.