keyboard was on fire for the first half

hi 20250722/23/24

Have you ever intentionally looked out at the night sky in search of stars? Sometimes stars feel as if they are imaginary... when searched for, I never seem to actually find what I'm looking for. Though this takes me back to when I was 9 years old laying on a manja, staring up at the night sky- looking for those tiny sparkles. And every time, I would find them- clear as day (get it am so smart), this being back in the homeland Of course.  When I'm here in the U.S I never really notice the stars. Usually all I find are airplanes going by, flashing lights as they fly by. However, last night... or rather early morning (4 am)- I stared out the window up at the sky, my eyes as wide as they could be from sleep's ever hanging presence. Tiny, tiny, tiny sparkles, faint glimmers, but one in particular... I've seen it before. I reckon I have, the brightest in light, the one that's slightly bigger in size than others. I swear I remember from previous nights/early mornings in which I do the same routine. Getting to as why I've done this multiple nights and mornings before... 

I wake up in the night to take my grandmother to the bathroom as I'm responsible for her in the night (am in the day too but yah). The cool air from the window feels as whiplash when waiting for her to be finished. Then, like clockwork, I tuck her back into bed and lay myself as well. Laying together tucked in, my head facing towards the wall with the window. Through the curtains, I see faint shimmers before I say goodbye in my own way. Eyes closing, sleep pulling together the curtains, taking me into my dreamland. Where all the stars I could wish for greet me, shining ever so bright.

Anyways... I went to the dentist yesterday and then the grocery store! I got more indomie too!! Maybe since I was tired I literally was dozing off when I got home. I practiced drawing as well, I would show but my art is like lowkey ass and idk how to put images into here--> Next Time though!! Speaking of art... for my first quarter at the college im gonna go to, I've signed up for a beginning art class!! (madi is in the same class aswell so joyous!)

Today I ate that indomie and I was joyous, also mint choco ice cream heh. You know joyous news... My friend was talking about starting a band- this isnt official or anything but bro I was jumping for joy. Yes, I would join!!! Yes, we will go busking!!! Yes, we will be joyous together!!! Anyways I better learn a new musical skill or do i jus bust out my flute- Lead singer of betcover (my all time goats fav band)  Jiro Yanase plays flute so!!! and hes super cool yo- only reason i diddn't stop playing music in middle school

ALSO TYLER DROPPED AND I HAVE BEEN LISTENING TO HIS ALBUM NONSTOP!!!

 ----> I wrote all at yesterday but today, the band has a name now!! so far we have piano/keyboard, bass, guitar, and am gonna learn drumkit but for now flute/piccolo for covers

Also, I finally scheduled my first drive at my driving school, lowkey nervous but hella excited. Today though, I went and drove a lap around my neighborhood area for the first time! Really joyous, but as usual I practiced in a parking lot. idk what else to say- my life is lowkey not that entertaining but I'll continue writing these whenever I feel it.

remember to drink water and don't forget to eat, yah!!! i forger to post this so i kept on typing in the notepad thing for like the past two days yas- did any of this make sense again also mybad for the terrible grammar and punctuation i gave up