i feel guilty

as a bisexual girl, who's equally attracted to both men and women- i feel guilty wanting a boyfriend. i've had girlfriends who i loved very deeply, but it never worked out, we always fought and eventually broke up. the only boyfriend i ever had, there weren't fights, we calmly stopped talking through a mutual agreement, and we're still friends. we're both fine with that (although if a future partner of mine wouldn't be, i obviously would understand, i'm just not in a relationship at the moment so i don't see a problem with that.). sometimes there are moments in my life where im exclusively looking for a girlfriend, sometimes exclusively for a boyfriend. and currently being at a stage where i lean more towards the male side, i feel guilty saying im bi.