Guess Who's Getting Worst Friend of the Month Award

Thursday 

24th of July, 2:53 PM

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Update on last week's blog: I am no longer friends with any of them except for E, and surprisingly I've managed to mostly get over it. But that's kind of irrelevant now. Yesterday my best friend Q told me that he never tells me when he's going through stuff because it feels like I'm not actually there for him from the way I respond, and that he wishes he could talk to someone that actually understands him. I'm ngl, that last comment did hurt a little because I do try really hard to understand him and be there for him, I just suck at responding. And he's a thousand percent correct; from the way I reply it doesn't sound like I care or like I'm invested. Half of the time I just say "oh" or "omfg" or "that is really bad" or "I would be upset to". It never occurred to me that I never ask how he's feeling about a situation or anything of the sort, and I really hate myself for it. If there was an opposite of the Princess of Friendship, I'd be that; I'm the Fool of Friendship. He's currently upset about it still (which I don't blame him for), but at least he's responding to my texts -- even if it takes him longer than usual. I do feel really bad for being such a bad friend when it comes to this type of stuff, but I do want to get better. A lot better. I want to be someone he can rely on in the future. If anyone has any tips on how to be more of an active listener and how to engage better in conversation, or any form of advice for that matter, those would be greatly appreciated.