i was blessed with an inconvenience

pain is a virtue ; the fact you are experiencing pain shows that you are actively living and learning but with this pain will leave after youve taken in everything its shown you, you might think things like 'why is this happening to me' 'why me' 'i cant take this' ect. but you chose this * everything that happens was already set, everything that will happen is too and you shape your own reality eg with manifestation you get what you want (requiring intention and action - you cant just sit and watch obviously) and repetition in your mind builds. if you dwell in these sad self deprecating thoughts youll stay that way. some people find comfort in pain and dont want help from others; so they have to help themselves. nobodys coming to save you (and thats not a bad thing because the only next option unless you want to drown in your own self-caused misery is you) of course you can get support and help from your people but you will never truly be happy until you free your mind on your own and it is possible: your soul chose its own path and what it wanted to do on this earth but you again cant just sit and wait for what your soul chose to do after learning that; you have to take action and whatever you do is whatever you were meant to * everything happens for a reason and especially pain does. you can not be without human suffering, it is possible to end but necessary for growth

simply hating something wont change it hating ur life hating the government hating ur friends hating ur ex hating ur house things that can be worth disliking not everything can be loved..u have to do something to make a change in ur life * but alot of people do nothing but sit and think about how much they despise something (and i catch myself doing it too nearly every day) but they dont think about how they can fix the problem. instead of dwelling in negative thoughts think about how you can fix that shit a lot ( repetition > belief > reality that you build on your own ) some people hate having knowledge and say its painful but you cant gain that knowledge without it and going through pain always results in learning even if the pain isnt your fault find beauty in pain and find beauty in the knowledge you gain even if it isnt knowledge you ever wanted (when something happen there was no changing it and it already happened if that makes sense. everything is simultaneous and everything will add up and end in the best possible way no matter what * with good intention and energy, but if you manifest all this negativity guess what… none of it will happen) 

and also slightly related and about one of my previous posts (it wasnt a blog so if youre seeing this in a while you wont know what the hell im talking about) whoever needs to needs to and whoever doesnt really doesnt - if youve read this far you were meant to. not saying this is anything deep or life changing but even reading just a kids book would have been needed. everything that ‘happens’ is already written down on a blueprint that your soul chose. So you chose this experience youre having and you can make it what you want even if it feels like you cant.) i feel like i was wrong about something from thinking. There is no becoming enlightened or becoming awakened - if you are then you already are (again everything is simultaneous / constantly happening? time is an illusion) everything that will be is already and everything that has been is, if you tell yourself youre 'asleep' > not enlightened anything like this: doubtful, guess what..thats what you arent. 

observe yourself in your thoughts