blog ~ goodnight : what have you extracted from this day

maybe youve been blessed with a mishap or this day has been perfect for you it doesnt matter which one because its all part of your souls chosen path no matter how insignificant it all seems 

today i was on my way somewhere and my little brother puked all over himself with nothing to clean that shit up and while this is an inconvenience theres always something to see: maybe i was protected from something bad happening at my destination or i wouldnt have as much fun as i will when i try again * i spent a long ass time trying to find something to wear and more preparing just for it all to backfire and having to turn right back around where i started and sometimes it happens like that and its out of your control but you can always try again another time > instead of dwelling in how sad you are about what happened think that something could have been protecting your energy, think of what youve learned if any lessons can be extracted and go back stronger and more prepared

oh and i also got to stay home and eat alot of good food and grind video games thats always fun

and for the past day or so ive been thinking about this recent moment in my life: i was surrounded with these negative thoughts because of things at the time going on in the political world and how it affected my people and my family: i thought barely any hope and mostly was feeling hopeless * im wondering why i still ended up where i wished i would be and how, if theres something higher (not much so > as the deity is within all of us and a part of us) still saw me thinking that my future would be separated/opposite of what i truly wanted and still had me end up where i wished i would be > blessings or subconscious manifestations, or maybe just simply ending up where i *needed* to be despite mind being dwelled in the opposite direction of where i had to be and only envisioning a future i despised

tonight before you sleep remember theta: the state of mind before and after sleep, before you fall asleep as ur dozing off and in a state akin to sleep (if that makes sense. if youve ever been conscious while still having a dream thats what id say this state can be, but ive heard different people having different experiences so go along with what you feel it is. the goal is not theta but rather what you can build in your mind) manifest and affirm: you create your reality and what you feed your mind is what you and your worldly life will be