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I’m 21 now! I still need to learn how to drive. Been feeling kinda lonely but that’s ok. I’ve been trying to do things to keep myself positive! Ya know, going on walks, dancing early in the morning, blowing bubbles, writing in my journal, singing for fun.
I have a friend I message every once in a while but lately he hasn’t been responding often, which is ok. He doesn’t have to, I’m not entitled to his time.
Ive started talking to myself more often, I don’t like it. Sometimes I scare myself. When I can’t sleep I just lay there staring at the dark ceiling just creating conversation with people, the most mundane topics ever. I want to stope but I just can’t seem to. I just don’t have anyone else to speak to.
Anyway I dunno what else to say, I’m just bored and have thing else to do or anyone else to talk to. lol a couple days ago I was SO bored I decided to voluntarily work on some math! OUT OF SHEER BOREDOM!
Sometimes I go to the park and write or draw, it’s more quiet there than at home. My uncle fixed up some bikes for me and my sisters, I rode a bike for the first time in years today. It was scary and exciting!
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Wed, July 23 2025 9:53pm
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I feel ya on the boredom! I got so bored these past couple days that I started practicing world geography (really just taking quizzes on where every country is in each continent... I cheated in online world geo in 8th grade... so, no information was retained). At least I learned something! Also ohmygosh, yay bikes! I haven't ridden one since I was like 12, but that was because I outgrew mine. I wanna ask for a new bike for my birthday/Christmas! I think it'd be fun!
hahaha yeah i def needed the practice!
i now have to spend a few days healing and changing the seat :[
You SHOULD get a bike, i forgot how fun it can be to ride one! i couldnt stop smiling when i was riding it. although since its been so long and my bike is second hand my butt was bruised from the seat(#｀-_ゝ-) im so weak
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i want a bike sooo baaaad !! i used to ride all the time as a kid and then didnt have a bike for years and then actually had to relearn how to ride. "you never forget how to ride a bike" is NAWT TRUE. granted the bike i was borrowing was too tall for me so that made it more difficult to get going again but yeah. having a bike would make it soooo much easier to get around my rural area ugh!! maybe i should ask for bike money for my bday/xmas
anyways dont be ashamed or scared about doing what you need to do when youre lonely. i legit talk to myself all the time LMAO bc other than my bf i literally dont have friends to talk to. i <3 imagining and acting out various scenarios in my head and pretending im not alone. tbh what ever happened to imaginary friends? i think we need to bring back having imaginary friends
yes u should deff save up for a bike! Mines is my fave color PURPLE!!! although i had to get a new seat and brakes. and thank you, i know its normal but sometimes i still think feel kinda funny abt it
i never had any imaginary friends which is sorta shocking considering i always lacked friends but maybe its because i always had my little sister?
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VEILBOUND_?
Congrats on being 21 !! That age seems so close but so far away for me
Aging is cool but
Scary
So many expectations.
walking is nice !! healthy
Math for fun !! maybe try something new ?
haha yeah aging isnt too bad apart from the more responsibilities and expectations part.
haha yes i try to keep myself busy with other hobbies but maybe practicing my math isnt too bad lol
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