♡Depression♡

I'm so sick of this shit, man.

My pharmacy messed up and wiped the records of my provider and who was prescribing my meds, so they refused to refill my meds for a month and a half. I finally got my meds refilled two weeks ago, but then i didnt take them cause I thought I didn't need them anymore. I felt happy. I only got three hours of sleep each night, if any, but I wasn't tired or anything, so i didn't care. Besides, I was so creative and socializing (probably too much because I got frustrated when nobody was up at 3am to talk to me), and I decided to become a streamer. And now i feel like crap. I thought there was no way I still needed my meds. But now I realize i was just manic, and now that I'm feeling depressed, I literally just want to rot in bed until I perish.

I didn't really eat, today. Eventually, i ate 5 chicken nuggets with cheese and some cubed watermelon. Now I have to talk to my doctor since i haven't been taking my medicine. But if I take my medicine, I'll just feel depressed and dead again. I won't get to feel the energy and creativity I feel when I'm manic because they put me on mood stabilizers and antipsychotics to numb the highs. Then I just get stuck with the lows.

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