[THIS BLOG CONTAINS REAL INFORMATION THAT HAS OR STILL IS HAPPENING IN MY LIFE, I HOPE ONE DAY THESE EPISODES WILL HELP SOMEONE OUT THERE]
- March/April, 2013
Well if you couldn't figure it out by now, SUPRISE SUPRISE, it was Chocolate! He had messaged me asking if I am alright after what had happened. Honestly, it took me completely off-guard that he had somehow gotten my number, and even more so showing his concern for me. Because I was more excited about his concern, I instantly responded by ensuring him that I was okay, before asking how he had retrieved my number. Ofc tho, I lied bc I honestly wasn't okay until he messaged me. But, either way, he seemed relieved that I was feeling alright.
That's when I decided to ask him how he had gotten my number in the first place. But, for some reason, he would give me the run around about how he had gotten it. I guess at the time I really didn't want to get into how he gotten my number, bc it didn't matter to me. All that mattered was that Chocolate is texting me, and I can get to know him some more privately.
But ofc, I couldn't keep this info to myself. After speaking to him for about 10-15 minutes, I pulled my sister Breezy aside to tell her what was going on. I told her about my crush, what happened at lunch that day, and how he mysteriously messaged me by checking on my well being. Ofc she was happy for me that this was happening, and rooting that I would eventually end up with him. Especially bc she was already dating a girl named Naichu, and I haven't been in a real relationship yet, so she wanted to see me happy with someone too.
However, I explained to her what kind of guy he was, and how different we are. I also explained to her that I'm still a bit skeptical about him being interested in me bc of this fact. Regardless, she still insisted to keep my hopes up, and to not give up. Breezy then asked to see a picture of him, but I told her that I didn't have one and he doesn't have any social media profiles. She then just brushed it off and suggested that to invite him to the next street over to hang out with me and our small group of friends. I told her that I may do that only if I get to know him more.
As days would pass, Chocolate and I were started to speak more in and out of school. We started to get to know each other more, and I would even share to him pictures of my drawings. I then started to learn that he wasn't too much into school, and he was more street smart, not book smart. Ofc, I didn't mind this fact, bc it sort of reminded me of my parents, since my mom was from a small town and is book smart, and my dad was from Brooklyn and was considered as a 'bad boy.'
That's when I started to think that since they worked out bc of their differences, maybe there is some hope of me ending up with Chocolate regardless of our differences. Especially considering that he really didn't mind how different I was from him.
During this time, I was becoming more and more distant with Discoball bc I was still mad at her about the supposed truth-or-dare scandal. I can tell she was bothered by it, and she had made numerous attempts to speak to me, but I was just not havin it.
However, another thing I would notice is that the more me and Chocolate would interact at lunch, the more the ghetto girl and ugly boy would watch enviously. But, I really didn't care if they were salty or not. The only thing I cared about was becoming more closer with Chocolate. Until, one day I arrived at lunch and noticed that the ghetto girl was starting to become more and more flirtatious with Chocolate. I also started to realize that the more I would try to get his attention, the more she would distract him from speaking to me. After this kept happening for nearly a week, I started to realize that she was purposely doing this bc she liked him too. I started to get more and more frustrated bc it seemed like they had more in common then me and him. I also started to realize that our conversations after school were starting to get more dry as this nonsense continued.
One day after lunch, Discoball wanted to pull me aside to speak to me. Although, I really didn't want to, she begged me until I finally agreed. Once it was just us too, she then continued to explain that she never intended to embarrass me in front of Chocolate. She then confessed that on that same day, she gave Chocolate my number to check up on me in order to make sure that I was okay. She then told me that she told Chocolate that she felt like that I didn't want to talk to her, after he asked why she wouldn't just message me herself. She then apologized again in hopes to make up and become friends again.
Honestly, I was incredibly grateful to Discoball, and hugged her after she told me this. I then apologized to her as well for falsely accusing her and I accepted her apology. I was happy to know what a good deed that Discoball had done, but then the more I thought about it, the more that I realized that Chocolate probably wasn't concerned about me at all. He was probably just doing Discoball a favor, and he wasn't actually interested in me at all.
Later that day, I started to go through all of our text messages and began to analyze them. I then started to realize that I was the one making more of an effort in keeping our conversations going than he was. I also realized that I was the one who mainly texted him first. I started to feel incredibly stupid, and decided to not text him at all that day.
As days would pass, I stopped texting Chocolate, and was starting to distant myself from him at school. He would try to pick up some conversations with me but I would give him dry responses and just let the ghetto girl continue to get his attention. During this time, the ugly boy would try to conversate with me and I would sometimes, but not often. There was also a period of time where he would offer to walk me to my next class. For the first two times I would agree, but after that I would decline his offers.
One day after lunch, Chocolate offered to walk me to my class. I was surprised but ofc I agreed to it. During the walk, Chocolate asked me why I haven't been messaging him lately. At first, I told him that he could message me too instead of it being just me all the time. He did agree to my comment, but then confessed that he fell back bc of the conversation he had with the ugly boy one day. I asked him about the conversation, and at first he hesitated with telling me what was said, but then he told me that the ugly boy asked for him to fall back because he liked me and planned to tell me this.
Chocolate then expressed to me that bc I would talk to the ugly boy from time to time and he would walk me to my class, he thought that I felt the same way about him. When he told me this, I instantly laughed and told him that I had no interest in the ugly boy at all. Once we got to my class, he asked me if I was going to text him after school, and I told him that he should instead of me. He agreed and then I headed into class.
Once I got home, I had gotten a text message from Chocolate, and at first it was a normal conversation. Then out of no where, he asked me if I had a crush on anyone. I told him yes, and he asked me who. I then asked him why he wanted to know so bad bc I was under the impression that he liked the ghetto girl. He then told me that he was pretty sure that she liked him, but he didn't feel the same way about her.
I then started to feel a sense of relief once he told me this. But then Chocolate began to ask me who I liked again. I wouldn't tell him, but then he started to ask if he knew who it was. I did tell him yes, but then he started to ask me again who it was.
I then began to type...
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