San Public Files 8 - I want to commit a bad Decision

Hey Hey people, John Spacehey here

making myself 2 pack of noodles b4 class, and i just can't shake of the desire to buy a guitar rn.

ok so I was never a musician or a good guitar player really, but my dad loved a brazillian band called "Legião Urbana", and i really liked to get the old acoustic we had lying around and learn a couple of tunes and see his reaction.

In total i guess i remember like, 2, so it truly didn't matter that much.

But now i catch myself missing the sound, the frustration of missing the mark over and over again only to get it 100% right the first time, the plucking of the strings, the faint smell of metal that was left in my hands after i was done, the small scratching noises it would let out when I drifted my fingers across the guitars arm.

I spent a lot of money so idk if I will do it, not this month anyway. 

But the thin walled apartment problem I was told about is not present in my building, the walls are rock/ concrete based just like back home so the noise won't bleed through... and a used acoustic is like 5k yen so it's really not that expensive.......

I need to let the idea marinate a lil bit before I get ahead of myself... Especialy cause i just got some sweet cash just now, about 15k yen. Oh God I realized something, im becoming one of those pinterest model wannabes... I SWER IM NOT PERFORMATIVE GUYS I JUST DON'T WANNA BE DEPRESSED AGAIN.

And i like matcha too.... i am not escaping the allegations T~T. I DRINK IT HOT THO!!! how can someone even drink something bitter when its COLD??? You wouldn't catch me dead drinking Cold coffee/Tea dude.

Poser talk aside, i've already tried all the other things available to me rn... reading (now that i think abt it I only have self-help and religious books with me), drawing, gaming... Blogging has been really fun even tho there's only one guy that reads these (Love you, MakeXD), but obviously I got to space these out or they are gonna end up saying the same shit, at least you guys get backstory sometimes

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