do i bother trying anymore

went to a job fair only to get jack shit back when they said they'll call me, despite the fact they were doing on the spot hiring. this was for a fucking wendys job. guess im not valuable enough :DDDDDD

and on top of that family really seems to like getting under my skin today too :DDDDDDD so im just gonna clean the whole house every single fucking day outta spite and see how they'll react since thats all ill ever be good for :DDDDDDDD

im fucking miserable. i wanna die so fucking bad i wanna just sleep and never wake up. time to go back to spam applying to a million different jobs only to hear back from none of them god isnt life just great kill me already. i wanna cry again i wanna trash my room outta pure unadulterated anger i wanna punch holes in walls and make my hands bleed so that way they'll finally start to notice me for my pain and not for something i wasnt even responsible for.