I told you i'm unstable.

I swear to fucking god this is the only place I can rant without anyone I know seeing it and worrying, thing is they don't need to worry about me I'm completely fine and it's stupid that they're even trying to pretend to care because last time I checked they all hated me. I'm really struggling to wake every day and have the fucking will to live let alone get up for school and all anyone else really cares about is if I do well and it's like, well don't you care about me.. clearly they don't I'm honestly just so sick of having to live up to everyone's expectations but my own, it's getting so fucking tiring and I've been through hell and back I cant really be arsed with all of this drama all of this stupid petty ass shit, I want to die most days and no one gives a shit so why would I give a shit about anyone or anything.