Inside my psyche ~ July 2025

A concept I have started on my Instagram account, which I'm now bringing into Spacehey. Those are my experiences, and mine alone.

SUBJECT – The relationship between me and my deadname/past self/other self.

The little girl living within my brain and flesh is rather innocent. She's just a child that needs lots of love. Unfortunately, her innocence has been tainted by mankind's true nature. Whilst she stays hopeful and kind, she's been struggling with herself, with her own thoughts and fears. Impulses that couldn't quite be explained or controlled, an ever-growing loneliness that would never end, and worst of all, her.

Her, bears the same name as the little girl. But she's not a friend. Violence, perversion, temptation, hate and humiliation is what she is. Something I'd never be.

Yet, her influence was so strong that, one day, I tied a rope around the little girl's neck and let her suffocate. Ever since, her body's been hanging, displayed to all like some sick, sacred idol. They all pray and kneel to her.

But she cannot hear them anymore.

Or so I thought.

At the end of the day, we're the same. I've just grown up, and she couldn't.