if you are an artist, take care of yourself (7.21.25)

i just wanna make art.

but i cant do it when my main line of peace has been disrupted, and i am feeling depressed.

when your heart breaks, it needs time to heal.

i just want to be creative and i haven't been in my creative spirit for quite some while, and i really didn't love that there was a feeling of exclusion and meanwhile just having no time to recollect myself at all or process anything.

and feeling like i am falling behind.

it wasn't the right setting for me and i had to go. and maybe i just can't see it right now.

i can't help but feel a little bitter.

it was toxic. but my heart misses everything.

i will find where i belong. hopefully. 

please....

for now, i will just focus on rest.

until i find out what to do next.

summertime sadness.