first blog, life so far!20250721

My first blog thing, Hi!

I've been thinking for a while what I should write about and lowkey I have so many thoughts yet when it's the time to express them, my brain becomes empty. There is such a vast array of topics I could share my thoughts on, but once I sit down at my desk and begin typing, I go blank. 

This my first post but why is it becoming depressing. Today marks the 12th year anniversary of my grandfathers passing. I mention it as my grandpa reminds me of times filled with joy. Personally, I like to hide behind my words of being joyous even if I actually am not due to a situation. However it's joyous to find the light in situations, even in the ones which are so dark you do not see the entrance or exit. (am i cooking w this or what) I lowkey haven't wrote in like any punctuation since the end of school- in my chs eng class. (freak that class yo even though the teacher was funny AS A PERSON, as a teacher tho bro pmo half the time) 

A Segway into one of my fav topics.... Music!!! I recently found this person on here and i saw their profile and i was like you mesmerized in like 'this person is so cool what the freak i wanna be that cool' type of way. Anyways they have a you tube channel and they like to make music and I've been listening to some of their music on SoundCloud and listening to this makes me feel some type of way. (Am listening to bro rn, the music is actually beautiful; he cooked w this) I watched some of bros videos a few days ago and bro.... why does he have the same thoughts as me... a little bit of a funky coincidence.... I just wanted to rant ab this and like anything which pops up into my mind. This floated around in my mind especially because of the similarity in age too... I was thinking, "Damn... this is beautiful... what am i doing with my life yo." However, I wasn't really comparing myself bc "comparison is the thief of joy!!!". When I was younger comparison rlly ruined me, yah i habe dealt w the consequences of that.... saddening.

 If you read all this or like skimmed ts, can you tell I tried using punctuation correctly in the start and then gave up. run on sentences (heartbreak emoji). oh yah remember to drink water and eat yah-i ate my last indomie packet am slightly sad but wtv! Did any of this even make sense? Even if it didn't i wanted to type it out! (how do i make this look cute i give up whatever yo) Can you also tell like the first section I wrote at a completely diff time than the rest.... "such a vast array of topics" get fancy pants outta here!! (im joking)