07/21/25

I don't even know anymore, everything is just happening at once and I want it to stop. I'm over here trying to immigrate to the U.S. from Canada right now, while my fiance has gone off to Army basic training, to no fault of his own! I'm just so stressed over it, and I have severe abandonment issues and it's just all starting to echo the feeling of my ex leaving me and I'm so scared. 
I also feel so stuck in an in between phase right now. So anxious because I want to do something to be productive and further my move, but it's too early right now and I just have to keep working and sleeping working and sleeping. I won't even have him here to talk to after a long stressful day, and I am grieving the time I wasted while hanging out with him. He's always deserved someone much more interesting than me.