gks preparation and thoughts

hii, are u all good? i hope so

since january ive been preparing for my gks application. to be honest, im a bit afraid of fail. its normal to feel this way, i guess. in spite of that, im feeling very positive!

i started to study korean too, so i have more chances to get accepted. im pretty good at it. last week i did the topik test (12th august). the results will be release on 21st august of 2025. im sure i get topik 2 hehe

in the next year im flying to korea for my medical studies, ill stay in there for 7 years. thats so many years away from my country, my family and friends, but i cant let it off my hands, u know? i mean, i need to live my life the way i want to, after all who is living is just me, not anyone else.

in the future ill be a famous artist, while being a forensic pathologist. its sounds different, doesnt? i think its pretty cool!! never ive seen something like that. for sure ill be the first forensic pathologist idol. 

i often caught myself afraid of the prejudice i may go through when i arrive, since im a trans latino guy. i dont see koreans as a receptive nation (to be honest, only the oldies are kind), so ill problably get in some trouble :(( although i love korean culture and want to experience it by myself. im not going for koreans, so its fine.

im currently a 19 years old young boy, almost a kid if i may say.

in the past year my ex broke with me. in the beginning i felt sad and angry, now i feel nothing for him. but my kid felt very lonely. im a age regressor and he were my caregiver. i couldnt regress after we broke up, then my kid rarely appeared. they felt very lonely and still feels that way sometimes, but i urge to give whats better for them. his name is mimi by the way. a friends daughter used to call me that way and i thought it was cute and decided to call my kid by mimi. i wanted to tell my friends about my regression, but i fear their reactions. not like they would find me disgusting or some stuff like that, i just dont want to feel weird again. i dont want those who i love to find my vulnerable side and make fun of it or just judge me. i cant control my regressions, neither how to get out of my regressed mind. when i do it in public unconsciously, im not able to get out just because i want, do u get it? so i often plays like im a adult (despite im not in the moment), so i get really quiet because of my kids voice. i hope to get someone to take care of me someday, of mimi to be more exactly.

thats it, its my first blog but i did it well!

please stay safe and healthy. i love u

bye, my little strangers!