School 💔💔

GUYSSSS I CANT DO THISSS 😭😭

I start school again tmrw... I sooo don't wanna go bc all my friends they all start August 4th (#difschools) and one even starts SEPTEMBER 1ST 😭😭 like... lucky ducks...

Ik it won't be too bad the way I think bc A. Ez classes (based off my schedule), and B. Bc i always think things r way worse than they actually are 💔💔 but like.. I so don't wanna be a senior..

Yea, grade reveal, I'm a stupid senior 😭😭🤞

Ak sinsianisnao I did like... basically nothing this whole summer- I was supposed to get like a job or smthng bc my mom kept (and keeps) and telling me to get one, and I was supposed to do volunteering hours for community service, but I did nonneee of that 😭 I have to get 50 hours by the end of this school year for the requirements for graduating- I genuinely hate hours... like, I get it's like a super cool and fun idea, but when you're a person with SEVERE social anxiety IRL it's a lot harder 😭 i hate it smm... ainqibaiba even then, I DID actually try to do volunteering but for smthng I knew I would like to do- I was going to do some blood tuff and give some platelets, but then when the (amazing and sweet) nurse lady did my blood pressure and stuff it was too high or smthng then they were like.. oh yea! U can just like give normal blood instead which would be significantly less time, being 15 mins instead of 2-3 hours and im like.. sure! Anything counts lol- turns out I couldn't even do that bc my hemoglobin was too low and blood pressure too high at the same time still 😭😭

Ianisnsin this whole summer I just spent sleeping my days for the first month, turned basically nocturnal on that roblox grind 💔💔 then I got bored and discarded among glorious peak, block tales 🙏🙏 which consumed just 3 days.. which wasn't bad at all lol

I managed to talk to my friends a TON online which was amazzingggg but then I had to ruin my summer by breaking up with my girlfriend at the time 💔💔 I would send daily text msgs asking how she was, and how her day was but she would only answer 4 out of 7 days 😭 I even managed to send her thise messages when I LNEW she wasn't busy and would actually see them, so there was a LOT of miscommunication ig- more like a lack if communication anyways but like she also kept on saying she's lesbain (I made it VERY clear that I'm trans and do not align underneath the lesbian term) and she just said "oh! Yea, I forgot but you're also you, so if I wasn't with you, I would be lesbian!" (She came out as lesbian 3 days after we broke up) so I just felt like she invalidated me a lot, I dont think I've heard her once say my preferred name 😭 but yea 🤑 I might see her around the halls this year so that'll bum me out- we did agree to remain friends though so idk... I just lowkey kinda miss her and its like 💔 why dude yk she wasn't the very best, but like at the same time- I COULD have put up with it 😭😭 idkkk... 

Oh well, past is past and u gotta move forward 🤑🤞

Ty for coming to my rant abt my summer and how I dont wanna go to school 🙏🙏

Good luck to anyone else starting school soon 🫡