WHO CARES

I'm going to make it a habit to appreciate the good things that have happened to me instead of burdens. Because really, life only gets bad when you focus and only complain about the burdens you have. Literally you're forcing your own mind to be shackled to the shade in the middle of winter when the sun is right in front of you if you just step out of the shade but noo you dont want to because it's comforatable

We never get the time to truly appreciate ourselves and our lives because we're constantly viewing life in first person. Where all the emotions and experiences are intensified. How about we look at it from a third view perspective? It's like how you get to view a character better when their thoughts and worldview are splayed right in front of you. Therefore whatever questions you have about yourself, gather thoughts and notice patterns and write them down. So in a way you're kind of seeing yourself. 

Why do we spend so much time learning about our favorite animals and some fun facts about them? Because they're interesting. If we were another species we'd find another species to us interesting. They might not find themselves intersting but how could they? When they are so unique and talented? This is a problem that often occurs with us, too. The same goes for events in history. The ones that gain popularity are the absurd ones that cut through the typical life being boring and empty.

 Like, did you ever hear about that one dancing hysteria back in.. whatever time period that was? Crazy what the human condition, propaganda, and the influence of each other can do to us. Especially the way we react to certain events. 

You know what who actually cares about how you look or how you act? If it matters to them so much they're just insecure and you don't have to be like them. What the fuck ever. Let's go do whatever today who the hell cares(but seriously do not blow up a house for fun or whatever chaotic stuff you have planned today i am NOT encouraging violence)

We have like what, a lifespan of 90 years. Maybe even more if you're keeping yourself healthy. 90 years of being insecure of what you'll wear today? 90 years of wondering why that one girl on the street laughed at you? 90 years of being afraid that the perception of you "not being yourself" breaks? Come on, you have potential. Why are we so concerned, why are we just doing nothing? I'd like to be the best version of myself I could be. 

"oh that's cringe" "what is she wearing" "tjhey look so bad" "are they crazy" That's nice, but you don't have the courage yourself to be yourself. You don't have the confidence to express yourself because you're always so caught up on people's viewpoint of you that you shame others because they aren't you. Lame. Those are the real losers. 

You know what? It's fine you read fanfictions. It's fine you find fanfictions weird. It's fine you find "unfunny" jokes funny. It's fine that you imagine yourself having fun with your favorite character.It's fine that you don't like games. It's fine you don't like music. It's fine that you draw characters from games you like. It's fine you like stuffed animals. It's fine you like rap music. It's fine you like preppy music. 

Are you going to let some stranger who hates everyone because they hate themselves so they project onto other people hurt you? Let some drooling, spiteful babies that have the attention span of a goldfish ruin your confidence? Let their pathetic little leeches hang onto you and suck at you for the next 20 years for something that was fun and didn't harm anyone? What. the. fuck. ever man. WHATEVER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Wear what you want. Act how you want. Dance how you want. Joke how you want. You're in control of your own mind here.