drunk

i got really drunk last night i got tired of the world and some of the people in it ive been numb so maybe i woudlve felt something but unfortunately idk some people that mean so much to me i feel i hurt them by this i feel incredibly sorry but some people that "meant " something to me i wish i didn't have to cut them off but i probably will more cuz im a sensitive person theyll wonder what the problem is but its more that i dont know how to control my anger i dont take criticism well i miss when times were ok when i felt a bit of happiness i always talk abt how people make me smile and feel good but im saying that cuz they mean alot but my happiness and smiles are lies a mask a mask to cover up my sorrow a mask that covers who i truly am i keep telling people about my depression my suicidal thoughts they say work on urself i really do try to nothing helps nothing helps that empty feeling in my heart where once i did feel something when i was born i was semi happy rven then i already felt a small bit sad END.