i didn’t say anything, but i noticed.

today felt weird. like… everything was happening around me but i wasn’t really in it.

people were laughing and yelling and talking about summer plans and i was just sitting there, thinking about how someone can be five feet away and still feel like they’re gone.

someone brushed past me in the hallway and said “sorry” like i was just air.

i think that’s what messed me up. not the word — just the way it didn’t matter.

i think i want to go somewhere quiet.

not like “run away and make it dramatic” quiet.

just like… a bench under some trees where no one expects anything from me for five minutes.

also saw erik today.

he looked like he didn’t sleep either.

he didn’t say anything.

i didn’t either.

but i noticed.

[summer school sucks]