idk just ranting

its so funny how many people think that my main personality is actually me, fck them anyway. im changing schools, yuppie!! i got so much trouble from the old school. but i gotta last 1-2 weeks before summer break. ill go crazy if the comfort idk how its called teacher approachs me again. the lines on my arms is none of her concern. i got my own comfort teacher, and thats one of my friends. (an online friend. i only got 2 outcasts as friends because the other were smart enough to not trust me) he cant comfort, and neither can i. hes just teaching me how to not care about anything, and thank god its working. hes pretty cool. i told him im gay (i have a lot of accs with my gender as a boy. but he knows that i just wish i was one and wasnt one. but he still calls me a boy either way) but im actually aroace, mostly. the "love" i feel is either lust or attachment , i thought i was inlove with him at some point but i locked that into the very back of my mind and now i dont think like that anymore. lol. i guess i gotta tell him that im aroace tho. im not THATTT bad. i just have a high dislikement of a lot of people, and am a bad influence. but well, i dont force anyone to do what i tell them to. they do it themselves, and then its my fault.