echoes of faith

I am constantly at lost

I mourn what I could have been, what won’t cost

What I can't save, like a fate embossed,

Drifting away, like a soul that's tossed.

So do you plead for,

when no one's near?

What do you beg for,

when God might hear ?

I ache for a God I can no longer summon,

For the comfort of the belief I’ve slaughtered,

But one day he'll come, hold my hand,

I’ll ask what happened, was this your plan?

and ill say im sorry god

you are my lord, i'm just a dog

Give me your hate, that I can take,

Don’t give me more love my hands will break

A love so soft, yet deemed so wrong,

In what world could it not belong?

Years go by, but shame still clings,

In what church could love grow wings?

So what is love, can you define?

A feeling, a choice, or a line?

An itch that lingers, and if you scratch,

It leaves a mark that time won’t patch.

I am sorry for this love i feel 

Just let me commit this one sin