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I try my fucking best to change, its like i just stay the same no matter what i do, i feel like a fucking loser 24/7, i mean of course i am, im homeschooled because im a freak, and no one would want me close to them, i get that, but it just gets to a point. Im so bad at socializing, i think i have fucking stuttering problem from talking to fast, i cant even register half of the things i say before i say it and it just comes out so wrong when i talk. I sound so retarted right now and i feel empty, and i sound corny as fuck right now but its true, i mean i just dont know how to feel. I would be going to highschol this year but i got held back a few years ago, im a fucking dumbass, maybe thats good i got held back though right? Im so scared to go to highschool because i know ill get bullied I ALREADY KNOW ill get bullied. they'll make up rumors, they'll spit on my locker, they'll follow me home to try and jump me jjust like the other kids did to me. and sometimes i sit and think "do i deserve this?" "is something ACTUALLY wrong with me?" "nooo i dont think so" but no i do think somethings wrong with me thats why they bully me. my mom says theyre jelous. jelous? of what. im so fucking ugly thats WHY they do it. why am i even here. like honestly. WHY?
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PsyWy
Fuck those people making you doubt yourself. Not everyone is gonna love how you look, but you just have to be happy with yourself. You need to standup for yourself. Self confidence is an attractive force whether to a partner or just friends or even random idiots you don’t know. You’re in school so you don’t get this now, but eventually you will see that none of those assholes will amount to anything, and even if they do, they will die just like everyone else dies eventually. Find a hobby you think is kickass and find a group or team or whatever it is that you’re passionate about. Also most people are way more worried about themselves than they are about you, because most people are self involved and unless they like you or absolutely hate you, you won’t be in these people’s heads. Also technique that helps me. Breath in for 4 seconds, hold for 4, exhale for 4, hold empty lungs for 4 seconds and repeat until you feel you don’t need. Be nice to yourself, you’re the only one who can control if you’re nice to yourself or not, I hope things start going better for you 👍
you are so fucking nice, im just seeing this comment thank you so much for this, it means SO much.
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