I like the idea of dating but it's so annoying sometimes

When I see some relationships on TV or in movies, I really want to experience it.  Yet in real life when I see ppl in their relationships with all the gushy and seeing threw rose colored glasses stuff, I just feel mute about it.  It's like watching everyone experience life and I'm just observing.  Even so, it's not like I'm jealous or don't care, I just don't always find it exciting when I hear someone talk about their boyfriend, girlfriend, or whatever in between.  It's like I dont get the hype and all I can see is the reality instead of this romance someone is explaining to me.  

Yet I love hearing about the glances across the room and the brief moments were you don't know if the person likes you but at the same time you know they feel something for you.  I feel like I like the fantasy the yearning more then anything.  Like when someone likes me, whether I like them or not it just throws me off a bit. And it's not because I don't think someone could like me, because I honestly think highly of myself and love myself. I just...i don't know feel like it's kinda annoying especially when they're trying to shove themselves and all their feelings down my throat at 5x speed. This year alone to ppl have speed rushed feelings with me and it's like slow down! Im not a car or a horse that can start up- like what happened to yearning and getting to know someone. It's like a week pass and it's all "I like you.....I think you're really...you want to meet up" like sir it's 11 at night what you can't see me when the sun is up? You a vampire or something. SLOOW DOWN. But yeah that's all I had to say.

Bring back the yearners!