i hate not having a duo:[

i dont wanna complain abt it at all i promise🙏​ i have a friendgroup and i love my girls with my whole being. the problem is that i dont have a fav human and im nobody's fav. that makes me feel empty in a way like im not special. i wanna know if it's a selfish thought bc that wouldnt surprise me as ive always been in a duo until 1/2 year ago😥(like im used to have an "official" bff)​ and i havent talk to anyone abt it so i dont have anyone's opinion on that. i think if this thought is popular it's just bc patriarchy and society in general make duos a basis and idealise them like all the comments on trios tiktoks being "i see the duo in the trio​🥀​" and friendship jewels are most of the time for two only (maybe this exemple doesnt echo to everyone but it seems important to me)

js wanna know if im alone feeling this way X)(sorry for all the mistakes im not fluent in english😥​)

(first post totally shiting my pants in anxiety​​💔​)