Wanna hurt bro

Tw ig

My grandma reminded me today, that she thinks I lied when I tried to over dose. She said "last time she (me) got drunk, she thought she overdosed." like I didn't think I overdosed, I did. They had brought me to the hospital and everything. I remember taking more of my meds than I was supposed to, with wine. I know it happened. 

She thinks I lied for attention.. Like. No. And SHE SAID THAT IN FRONT OF MY COUSIN. I didn't want her to know, now she probably thinks it was for attention too. WHY'D SHEE EVEN BRING IT UP. IT WAS LIKE 2-3 YEARS AGO.

I remember feeling like I was throwing up my organs in the hospital parking lot, I went through not dying just for her to remind me that no one believes me. 

I wish I would have dide. That made me sick to my stomach. I wanna throw up just thinking about what she said. It made me wanna rip my insides out, or hurt myself. Anything to take my mind off of it. 

Just getting it off my chest, hope you enjoyed 𐔌՞⁔ෆ ̫ ෆ⁔