I'm so fucking lonely- vent

Everyone leaves me, everyone gets annoyed of me, I'm too much and never enough, no one checks up on me when I'm actually sad my "friends" don't care about me, no one cares how I feel I'm a replacement. My girlfriend left me without an explanation and wanted to stay friends then cancelled plans we made ages ago and no one else wants to go with me to the parade on Sunday. I'm so done with everything I can't cut myself until September and I haven't been to school in a month and NONE of my "friends" checked up on me. IM SO TIRED I CAN BARELY GET UP. I am on prozac and my psychiatrist wants to double my dose to 20mg. I don't feel any better. Also everyone tells me I'm autistic, which isnt inherently a bad thing ig. I don't want to be alive but dying seems scary yet the only way if i want peace.

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i've definitely have been there, but it does get better, and trust me, there is hope if your feeling down. but anyways, hope your doing okay :(

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Thank you, and I'm sorry you had to be in that place as well, its sucks.

by Kat XD; 1752792637; Report

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I was the same as you. Permanent self-harm scars, multiple suicide attempts (one which landed me a trip to the hospital) and no-one by my side. Now it's all better, and I believe it can absolutely get better for you too (not in a cliche way, with actual tangible steps). I owe it all to two things; self-improvement (mainly via Pinterest and YouTubers) and our Lord God.

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I'm sorry you had to go through that, but I'm proud of people like you for surviving through something like that and that it got better in the end. And I don't know if I will find the correct people some day but I hope so.

by Kat XD; 1752790000; Report

There's no need to appologise. My advice would be this: the words "I would rather have no friends than be friends with people who are bad for me" rind very true, the moment you learn to love the company of yourself (or as I like to picture, me and the highest version of myself) you will be in great stead. Remember, self-care is a necessity like food and water too ! <3

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