My Lyrics! (last update: August 29th 2025)

This is obviously where I'll post any lyrics I write. I'm not posting every song I write bc a lot of them are very personal (or just plain bad ;-;).

Idk how often I'll update this because it just depends on when I write and if I want to put it out on the Internet. Probably once (1) a month. Twice (2) if I'm lucky bc I got school and after school clubs and all that jazz o_o

Newest songs will go on the top, the songs will be highlighted in different colors to make them easier to spot/tell the difference between.

I'll add little meanings about each song/what song they're inspired by under the respective song and it won't be highlighted.

I'm open to any criticism as long as it's constructive. Be nice.

Music inspo playlist (if u wanna know what songs I'm talking about)

Lyrics:

Don’t Come Back:

I’m finally leaving my head

And it feels like sh1t

I want to, want to go back

But I know that I can’t

We were only stupid kids

How did we turn into this

Why did we turn into this

How did we, why did we

There’s a darkness in every light

And there’s no light in the dark

My mind it comforts me

Just let me go back please

Let me, let me go back

When did the clock continue turning

Turning ever so quickly

Quickly consuming me

Me and my everything

You were my everything

You should have been my everything

All my memories, fading and burning

Burning with regrets

Regrets that I thought I never had

I hope they never come back

No don’t, don’t, don’t come back

Everything feels cold now

Because you took my heat, left me to bleed

I want it back, please can you give it back

“No, no” you say “It’s mine for the keeping”

Keeping me in place, and my mind is circling

Circling with the thoughts of you

We were only stupid kids

How did we end up like this

Why did we end up like this

How did we, why did we

You’re still keeping me trapped

Trapped inside my own head

That I thought it was my friend

Thought it could help me

In the end it’s always you

You who keeps on consuming me

Consuming me and all my misery

Misery that you caused

Please take it all away

Take it all, take it all, take it all away

When did the clock continue turning

Turning ever so quickly

Quickly consuming me

Me and my everything

You were my everything

You should have been my everything

All my memories, fading and burning

Burning with regrets

Regrets that I thought I never had

I hope they never come back

No don’t, don’t, don’t come back

I hope they all burn with you

I hope they’re all in h3ll with you

Don’t ever come back

I’m tired of saying please

You were my everything

You should have been my everything

But look at where we are

Now

Meaning: it’s about finally ‘waking up’ from your own thoughts and actually cutting ties with people you don’t need in your life (not inspired by anything)

Every/Anything:

It feels like I’m drowning in my own emotions

A swimming pool full of empty sponges

Soaking up everything you give

But it’s never enough

Don’t you know what I’ve done to keep us afloat

What I’ve stopped myself from doing

Because I tell myself that I love you

I wonder if you feel the same too

I’m giving everything I have

Everything I want

Oh it’s going all to you

I would give up my soul

And my life to be with you

But you’re not returning it

Not paying it back

I’m risking my future self

Wanting to throw them in the trash for us

It feels like I’m cracking under my own pressure

Of giving everything and anything to you

I stay up way too late

Wondering where we went wrong

Was it all my fault? Is it in my head?

I want to know but I can’t stand the truth

Can’t stand the thought of loving you

But I don’t want to leave you

I’ve tried and tried to keep us afloat

But it’s never ever worked

All because I tried to love you

Tell me do you still love me too?

I’m giving everything I have

Everything I want

Oh it went all to you

I would’ve given up my soul

And my life to be with you

But you didn’t return it

Didn’t pay it back

I’m risked my future self

Wanted to throw them in the trash

It still feels like I’m cracking under my own pressure

Of giving everything and anything to you

Every letter and line I’ve wrote

Was it all for nothing?

Giving up all my strength for love

I was stupid

I gave you everything and anything that I had

Threw myself into the deepest end

Gave it all and you just took it for yourself

You couldn’t see that I truly loved you

Everything and anything that I ever had

Oh you’re coming back to haunt me

Everything and anything that I ever loved

Oh you’re gonna crush me

Meaning: it’s about feeling like you’re in a one sided relationship (not inspired by anything)

Song name: Summer Child

I know we dreamed of doing big things

I’m sorry love but I let you down

We never got our crown

You were a clever girl, you just didn’t know it

You were a light in the world

But they didn’t know it

You never showed how sad you were

We didn't know how bad things were

I know it seems so hard

But you can push through, for me

But more importantly

For you

Oh sweet summer child

Put it all behind you

You don’t deserve them

Oh sweet summer child

Forget about it all

You didn’t deserve that

We’ve always dreamed of staying up till the morning

We do, but not for the reasons we want

We should take it as a warning

That our seasons are changing

Your big round eyes will get tired eventually

But you’ll keep them open long enough

Trying to feel complete

I know fear won’t let you go

But you have to push through

For me, but more importantly

For you

Oh sweet summer child

Put it all behind you

You don’t deserve them

Oh sweet summer child

Forget about it all

You didn’t deserve that

You’re an unwritten melody

An unfinished song

You are strong in so many ways

So keep your friends close

And learn to let the bad things go

They’ve hurt you in more ways than you can count

Yet you still hold on

You’re still singing your song

You’re still holding on

To all those good memories

From before you changed

No it’s not all lost in vain

There is still time, go live your life

Be wild and unafraid

My sweet summer child, light up your night

My sweet summer child, don’t forget about your life

It’s all ahead of you, nothing you can’t break through

Oh you’ll come out alive

Meaning: it's a love letter of sorts to me from middle school/early highschool. I used to be a very bright and bubbly and extroverted person so I'm kind of telling my younger self you don't have to go back to being who you were. (Inspired by Dearest Sunshine and Mend My Soul In Lavender, both by Alisha Liston)

Song name: Live My Life (without further ado)

Wake up, the world feels like a dream

It’s spinning but also staying so still

Spinning so fast I’m about to get sick of it

Tonight feels like the beginning of something new

Messing shlt up just for the fun of it

I’m so ready to be done with this life

So without further ado

Let me do some stupid shlt and fxck things up

Let me live me life however I want

Oh~ forget about the academic record

Lets go blow something up or cause a ruckus

I just want to live my life how I want it

Oh, oh~ oh~ let me live my life how I want it

It feels like I’m about to combust

All these adults saying shlt they don’t even mean

Weighing me down thinking about my little possibilities

Tonight feels like I need to do something new

Need a new life, oh I’m full of it

I’m so ready to fxck up my life~

So without further ado

Let me do some stupid shlt and fxck things up

Let me live me life however I want

Oh~ forget about the academic record

Lets go blow something up or cause a ruckus

I just want to live my life how I want it

Oh, oh~ oh~ let me live my life how I want it

Got no need for maps or direction

I’m going solo, on my own mission

Every twist and person, just a new addition

To my fxcked up life~

Let me do some stupid shlt and fxck things up

Let me live me life however I want

Oh~ forget about the academic record

Lets go blow something up or cause a ruckus

I just want to live my life how I want it

Oh, oh~ oh~ let me live my life how I want it

This is for the girls who want to run away

For all the boys who want to seize that day~

Let’s go stupid shlt and cause a ruckus

Not think about tomorrow, no, no consequences~

Let’s go live our lives how we want it

It’s about how a simple life isn’t for everyone, and sometimes people want more at any cost. Also I couldn’t decide between ‘Live My Life’ and ‘Without Further Ado’ as the song title so I merged them. (inspired by Tonight I Might and My Way by KATSEYE)

Song name: Twin Flames

In the beginning there was hope

Just like the story books from long ago

Two hearts beating in sync just like candle flames

Our future was painted in gold

We were ready to be unstoppable, to hold onto each other for forever

But i never thought that you would leave

I thought we were twin flames

Burning up together

Surviving the crusades and even the rapture

Oh we were gonna be in this whole thing together

But you left me all alone, on my own

I thought we were twin flames

Burning brighter than the stars

Yearning for a life that’s not ours

But you went on without me

And I’m still haunted by your flame

In the silence of my world I can still hear your name

Calling out to you, seeing if you’ve changed

Falling down when you say you've forgotten me

I was so caught up in these walls

I guess it’s my fault you never called

I locked my heart into a vault

But why am I still blaming myself

Why am I still playing these games by myself

I thought we were twin flames

Burning up together

Surviving the crusades and even the rapture

Oh we were gonna be in this whole thing together

But you left me all alone, on my own

I thought we were twin flames

Burning brighter than the stars

Yearning for a life that’s not ours

But you went on without me

And I’m still haunted by your flame

An eternal light can still go out

An eternal light can not be found

Now i’m writing songs about you

Cause I can’t face my own guilt

Oh twin flames, what a disgrace

It’s about a friendship that no longer exists but one person wants to rekindle it. Based on my own feelings/experience (inspired by Weird Hills by Janani K. Jha)

Song name: Hallucinations

I see you

But you're not there

You're a part of me

But only my despair

Look me in the eyes, tell me are you alive

Ooo~ what are you?

Ooo~ who are you?

In my shadows you dance

Every step I take, it’s a little bit more of a chance

Trying to find you~ I’m trying to catch you~

Don’t you run away from me

But don’t you make me scream

Won’t you let me see~

Hallucinations, haunting my dreams

Hallucinations, real or fantasy?

Ooo~ I don’t even know~ no, no, no

Hallucinations, a touch in the night

Hallucinations, controlling my life

Ooo~ can’t you just leave me alone~ no, no, no

In the mirror, in the dark, no light in sight

You’re all bark but no bite

So why am I so afraid?

Weighed down by my own self

Weighed down by you eyeing me

But you're there, terrifying me

Caught in a maze of shadows, no end in sight

Chasing my own mind, till it’s my time

A bittersweet illusion of the past

A bittersweet illusion a-at last

Ooo~ who are you?

Ooo~ what are you?

Hallucinations, haunting my dreams

Hallucinations, real or fantasy?

Ooo~ I don’t even know~ no, no, no

Hallucinations, a touch in the night

Hallucinations, controlling my life

Ooo~ can’t you just leave me alone~ no, no, no

I see you, but you're not there

I see you, but why are you here

Merely a specter of my own despair

Look me in my eyes, tell me if I’m alive

Ooo~ what am I?

Ooo~ who am I?

You’re a silent echo of my screams

A silent echo i see in my dreams

Ooo~ where do we go now, what will you do now?

It’s about the memory or feeling of someone/something ‘haunting’ you. The only way to describe it is: it’s like watching a bad movie over and over and you hate it but you know every word of dialogue in it and watch it at least once a month and it never leaves your mind. (kind of inspired by The Judgement (I Think Too Much) by Janani K. Jha)

Song name: Once Bitten

(ooo~) you were, the light in my dark

Key to my heart, now all I see

Is the devil trying to tempt me

Trying to get you off of me

(ooo~) I can’t find peace

Can’t break the hold you’ve got me, it’s suffocating me

Love’s become a chase

And you're not staying in your own lane

Once bitten, by your teeth

Twice bitten, made me weak

Once bitten I~ couldn’t see, hear, or breathe~

Once bitten, got me shy

Twice bitten, crossed a line

Three times, get out of my life

Every word you said

Like shooting stars in the dark, fading faster than scars

Like the ones you left on my heart

Caught up in deceit

You swept me off my feet

Then threw me in the deep

(ooo~) I got out

But how much of me is left

Where did I go, what did you do to me

I’ve found strength but how can I balance

I sleep better without you, but i hate that i miss you

I shouldn’t miss you, why do you do this to me

Once bitten by your teeth

Twice bitten made me weak

Once bitten I~ couldn’t see, hear, or breathe~

Once bitten, got me shy

Twice bitten, crossed a line

Three times, get out of my life!

Once bitten made me scream

You didn’t listen to me~

Twice bitten, was it a dream~

Woke up, never complete

Third time, i’m seeing clear

Last time you’re in my air

Once bitten, no shame on me

Twice, all shame on you

Third time, i’m finally saying goodbye~

It’s about someone overstepping your boundaries and how it can change you as a person, as a partner, and how that experience can affect your future relationships. It can affect romantic, platonic, or any kind of relationship and it hurts like a bltch. (not inspired by anything)