blog 2 - relationships

im still insecure. shockerrr!!!! who couldve guessed? certainly not me.


the guy ive been seeing? i dont want him anymore!!! its early in the relationship, things can still end early enough to not be weird. weve met a few times and things have not gone very far yet. i want out, hes not for me. or at least, not what im used to.

and so i tell him, and i ask him to spare me, and i expect things to end there, like they always have. for them to see that they cant have me and give up, maybe beg me to stay but not much else. i still get out in the end.

imagine my shock seeing someone fight for me. genuinely fight. its gross. its not begging, its not crying, its not complaining, just good reasons for why i should stay. hes making good points, yet all i can think about is that im trapped with him.

im scared. i just want to be single again.