one million billion (Jargin No.22)

the past week went by pretty fast i think... it feels like i'm writing this much too early but it's been a week since the last blog so i guess no :shrug:

anyway, i don't think i have a ton to say tonight...

the family reunion was nice for sure, mostly consisted of talking with cousins and playing board games/card games with family, which is so super cool. Talked to one of my cousins about D&D for a bit about a homebrew campaign I wanted to do but ended up shelving for a while because I wasn't sure about whether or not it was good to run. he told me some ways to improve on it and it's motivated me enough to make a plan with my friends to play later this month so thank you to that cousin (not saying his name, privacy boy). he also beat me at chess four times and i have yet to get even with him on that

oh yes hold on i forgort look at the new art

okay i haven't drawn a ton since last post but i did put all of my energy into this one drawing... someone last post said i should do more of the cat guy and rabbit guy duo from that one doodle i made and i was like yeah i should do that so here be, my friends (specifically to that one spacehey user that suggested such if they are reading)

i was very proud of this when i completed it and initially had to restrain myself to not immediately post it here and say "LOOK GUYS LOOK!! I'M SO PROUD!!11!"

More maybe to come of these two. They got something going on that i like

time management and video gaming (dev)

i met a new friend on here (hi if you're reading :]]] ) and we both do/have done game development to an extent, and we showed each other and told each other about projects we'd worked on and one of the ones i showed was a game i remember being very excited about. i think that was because that project was kind of my stress-relief project kind of thing, where i just add whatever comes to mind and it doesn't matter because in the nature of that game, it would be fitting. that doesn't make any sense but trust me so much when i say i was excited to a ton of random crap and make something without needing to plan out things down to a T

I don't know whether or not i really want to show anything yet because i like to keep things secret until i either release it or shelve it so we'll see... the reason i previously shelved the aforementioned game was mainly due to me not understanding Godot (game engine i use) very well and also coding several important systems so abhorrently that i couldn't possibly work with it later on. I've started the project from scratch so the code is all cool for now, and i still have the assets from the previous version of the project that I can reuse and improve upon. so no complete losses phwew

something i've been noticing almost every day as of recent is that days are so short for no good reason. I have several things i'm working on but i physically can not work on all of these things that i want to at once... it's a bit demoralizing sometimes.

I mentioned that one idea for the acloudyskye lyric video last week which would include me needing to learn blender more and also learn animation better and also learn lighting better and also learn yadda yadda doo and so on and on. But before that I have to sketch out the environments and whatnot to make a storyboard for the thing, and also write a script with that so it's going to take a second...

but then also I have the game i mentioned a minute ago that i want to make, that'll take a hot minute for sure. but then i also have the other game I mentioned a few months ago that i'm still figuring out, but then also that other horror game i mentioned last post.

but then also i kinda want to get better at art because i could also impove... ahhh but also i need to learn how to make music because that's something i want to get into because i love music and i want to make it. not to mention the games need music too!! I also have piano pieces i want to learn and i want to get better at the piano because i liked playing the piano when i used to do that but i forgot most of it and learning pieces takes a fair amount of commitment

BUT! The DND campaign!! I have to get that sorted, it's coming up soon!! My friends need to know the setting and rules and what classes and races are available and it's homebrew so I'll have to write up something to assist them with that and also figure out any other little things in the campaign that i want to configure/add

However there's also a ton of games i'm in the middle of that i want to complete... Death Stranding has been fun, I want to finish that and play the 2nd one as well. But also I haven't beaten GTA V and i was liking that and wanted to get back to it, but Ohhhh Castle Crashers is such a fun old time and they're releasing a DLC soon and i want to play some of that but also Dead By Daylight i gotta grind the new rift and i like playing that sometimes MmmHmmm also want to listen to music, both stuff I know and new stuff, which i have to be laying on my bed and not be doing anything to enjoy properly and that takes time doesn't it...

Not to mention!! SpaceHey blog!! I technically don't have to do it but I think it's good to write out my thoughts and write more in general even if everything is usually unreadable yknow but then also i want to read more for that reason, become better vocabulary'd or whatever, i have the entirety of tokyo ghoul on my shelf i haven't touched in a while and also berzerk vol 1 and also house of leaves to read

But i have a life outside the computer!!! I have to make sure my body doesn't rot down because i'm on the computer all the time, I gotta take responsibility and take care of my body by exercising often, but also i have other house responsibilities now and again, but also I got COLLEGE coming soon and lord knows that's going to be a whole thing... keeping touch with people i already know and then also meeting and keeping up with new people and then obviously school work A LOT of SCHOOL WORK

gahhhhouhh...

it's frustrating. i remember having days years ago where i'd be so bored out of my mind i couldn't think of a single thing to do no matter what, and now i've got so many things i do want to do that it'd be physically impossible to do most of them.

call me macklemore because uptown funk am i right

what the fart

i think we've hit the brain fart area here. i'm getting tired from writing and i want to do something else. likely finish D&D hopefully but i might just sleep if my eyes droop low enough

earlier today several times and a couple times the past week i been listeining to this CSH song on repeat so i'll supply it below. very good one i love How To Leave Town one of my favorites from them. i don't like the first 8 seconds where he says that, no idea why but i don't like it but everything else is peaky deaky. I guess i might just be doing song of the week from here on out maybe? i need more visual and sensory filler in these blogs anyway. if it want 2

speaking of 2 i might just put 2 songs of the weeks for the flip of it...

This song below reminds me a lot of my trip to England a few years back, my uncle played it and i liked it a lot. very chilled out, i love long songs and i loved my time in England when i was there. Reminds me of a morning with crisp air and you're just going around getting stuff done and getting on with stuff

Honestly might just move out there when i graduate depending on the state of things in both the US and over there... i have family and there's so many things over there that i preferred over America. of course the housing pricing is terrible so that's always something to consider but still. let's go brits

that's about it... goodnight spacehey people on the internet on spacehey have a good night or whatever time it is good morning noon afternoon evening night whevener zzzzzzzzz