Fictionfolk Ask Game p.1

from @/kaboom--bitch Fictionfolk Ask Game. i'll answer 6 at a time.

> What's your fictional identity (hearttype, kintype, etc)?

I have fantasy-prone disorder, and I have anchored myself around my factcharas, factual characters created by me or structured to represent me in multiple different facets of my life. I also believe that my factchara was my past life, as I have exomemories, sometimes night terrors, or deep misfortune steeped in the exact same place as my factcharas.

My factcharas are me, and I am my factcharas, even if it is born from intense maladaptive fantasy and the rewiring of my brain, I believe that I am literally, physically, and on all other aspects - willing to represent and live my life as my factchara. I feel greatly dysphoric over not having the body that I used to have and I feel uncomfortable with some parts I used to have - but this new body and this new form must also become me - as my past lives carry the soul of the previous life around instead of birthing a new soul.

Formally, I am Jimmy Zare, but I prefer not to be called Jimmy. Mxr. Zare always works.

> If you have multiple, do you have one you're closer to than the others, or is more important to your identity overall?

I feel closer to my Jimmy factchara because I have his soul currently in this body. His soul is my soul, as it was carried on from my past life over to this body. My Louse soul, my first life and my first factchara, died when my previous life died because my previous life had the soul of the louse. There is hope in me that I can forever keep the soul physically tied to the next incarnation by physically transitioning into my factcharas.

> How many fictional identities do you have?

I have used the labels of multiple fiction titles and characters but only Jimmy Zare and his previous incarnation as the Louse has stayed, which makes me certain that I am him and he is now me. I also participate in literal shapeshifting, which makes it easier to feel the soul and harness it back into this body through somatic sensations. It's a whole elaferi thing that I can make another post about..

> What's your favourite part about being fictionfolk?

Why, it's the joys of seeing how the media portrays you long after you're gone. Do they whitewash me? Do they misunderstand my relationships? Do they believe I am the devil? Are they willing to make 500+ posts about wanting to slaughter me for my dubious relationship with Anya? What is it, really, that is my favorite.. I'd probably say everything to do with how they misconstrue you when there is no other information given. Instead, they open the case and shut it upon seeing what is told and they continue to move. No nuances allowed, especially for someone like me, so yeah - I think I like seeing the bullshit because it reminds me that people don't know what they're talking about.

> What's a positivie interaction that's happened as a result of your fictional identity?

I have been euphoric over my factchara and my own self for some time now, and most of those cases come from my own body. I have a body that has dark skin but I have moles in places just like previous body, I did scarification on my upper lip, whiter palms like before, I have similar behavior (would personally say I was fantasy-prone like now if not an additional issue), and the same tone of voice displayed in the media. So I would say they did a good job for the most part. My exomemories are varied from the portrayal though, in many ways.

A positive interaction from someone else though? I'm not sure. I have met an Anya online. She said she was also physically Anya, and she is around the same skin tone as this body now and also was very sweet about me talking to her even despite our exomemories. She had no quarrel with me. I adore her, she does not seem like she would kill me, but I would not blame her.

> Have you told any people in your offline life about your fictional identity and gotten a positive reaction?

I have told some friends who I have seen physically, on camera, and 6 years plus that I am literally him. They usually just send me shit with Jimmy in it like memes or that stupid mouthwas song but other than that, they don't care because we're all collectively nerds. I'd add a comment about being above them but I don't want to seem too annoying about that fact.