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Currently sitting on the floor of my dorm room sulking and listening to froufrou.
I want to be appreciated.
I know, it sounds strange to say.
But it's true.
I've found that throughout my entire life, (which has only been 18 years but feels like forever), I've always been the person to go out of my way to do everything for everyone else, but I've never had anyone do the same shit for me. excuse my language but I'm upset.
Before I switched to online high school, I would hand make cards for everyone I was friends with. Birthday cards, Christmas cards, valentines day. I went the whole 9 yards with glitter and colors and I made them from cardboard so they'd last long.
But nobody ever made me any cards
nobody ever gave me any cards
nobody ever gave me anything.
And I'm not asking for anything, I don't make cards for people so they'll make me things.
I do it because I love my friends, and I want them to know that.
I guess by this point you must be wondering why I'm bringing this up now. My work place had a secret Santa. we were told that we had to get a gift for someone that was anywhere from $10-$20. we all filled out a questionnaire and I think you all know where this is going.
I found that I was the only person who put effort into it. I went out of my way to make sure that the person I got a gift for really liked their gift.
But nobody did the same for me.
I think I'm going to stop.
I'm going to stop going out of my way to do nice things for my friends and others. Because at the end of the day, I always feel like this. I always end up feeling like how I'm feeling now.
But this is an essential part of my personality. Giving to people is just how I am.
So as much as I say I'm going to stop, I know I'm not.
I Just want to be appreciated.
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blowme
only 3 years older than you but im also in college and trust me I felt this whole heartedly, the thing is when you stop they will only villianize you, I think the only thing to do is keep being nice and the way you are and either one day they will realize it or other people you meet will. life is a waiting game and you just have to wait for the good moments and try your hardest to get through the bad. keep being wonderful btw ur so pretty !
Thank you so much for this!!
You are so right! I feel like if I stop being overly nice to people they'll hate me because they're used to me being like this.
I'll figure it out though XOXO
And you're super hot too!!
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