Huhh

Is it bad that im dissatisfied and disappointed because i know i cant rely on my friends? Like i love them but i genuinely hate this,i hate that i cant just ask them for help and have them be there like its gotten to the point where i just dont even ask and its not just small stuff like yk i may gey upset when my friends dont help me in a video game but damn,i cant rely on them to just be there so not judgeor just understand me like. I feel like a clown everytime im with them,no matter what i do rhey laugh and im happy but damn not every moments needs to have you naking fun of my its so annoying