A special release from a broken loser, I hate you guys. (+ news)

Trying to write this blog post is difficult for me. I can't make sense of anything anymore. Millions of crashouts. Misfortune and misery. After everything, I don't recognize myself anymore. How the FUCK can any of you still call me Sonic4? DO you still think I Am the guy you used to know?

I'm the embodiment of hatred. Everyone knows my astronomical falloff. Nobody fucking cares about it though. I don't want to drop albums, but I keep dropping them because shit keeps happening in my life. It hurts for me to do this. It hurts for me to see my excitement turn to bitter anger when once again, the false hope of SOMEBODY out there listening to my shit, turns out to be true.

If you can't listen to a 4 track EP, get the fuck out. Even if you can, get the fuck out. I hate you.

LOVE / HATE by Sonic4

Just like 2023's a special^release from YOur senpai, I stand here, broken af. I don't want to explain the meaning behind this EP. Is it pointless? Hell no, it's not. You listen to my feelings. YOu ignore my feelings. You wouldN't get it. When I break down in tweeter, that's not just abstract meaningless shady shots I take at nobody. No.   I know what I' msaying.  When will be the point when I say things to people's face straight up. I Am too afraid to talk. To say the truth of what is going on in my head. 

I hate myself just like I hate you. If you love me, you love yourself. But I don't love y ou.

Why must I keep living like this. My life ain't good, it ain't bad. I'm bad, and this fuckass hellhole is bad. How can people not see that.

Everyone lost their souls. How can people not see that. How can they not realize that the good old days we once had, it's gone now. Maybe people know that, but how are people okay with that. WE are suffering in this together. We are nothing. We get nothing. Some get unlucky. Some get bad times.

1 person y'all. It's 1 person out there I depend on. JUst like 2023. At my worst, only one person, out there, loves me. I love you too. WHat can  I say.

How can I still love somebody? At this state ? AFter everything that happened.

time for some news because i only got 1 news

aytracker is my current project, a microsite dedicated to archiving as much remaining trash from the past as possible. currently only one page is work-in-progress and it's gonna take me a while to finish this fully.

bye y'all.