supa not so secret drama rant

god. sometimes i hate relationships. and i feel like that goes for everyone, right??

they can be so stressful sometimes. but as the saying goes, love conquers all- or so everyone says! nobody talks about how even more stressful a relationship can be when you're already out of it. and from an exterior perspective, it all seems stupid. like, really stupid. let me tell you about my story. drama alert!

boom. flashback. two years ago, i was dating this boy that we'll call puppy. he was my first boyfriend, and it really was, yaknow, puppy love. he was kind to me, he tried his best to be a good bf, tho we both rlly didn't know what we were doing. the only problem i'd say the relationship had wuz the fact ALL my friends wanted him, and some didn't even try to hide it. one of those friends, we'll call gatorade. 

one day, we got a new kid a school. how cliche, we'll call him stick (xDDDD he BETTER not see this). gatorade liked stick, despite having a bf at that time. she was my bff tho, so i tried to be supportive, hoping it would make her stop liking puppy. i thought, maybe she can win stick over, right?

me and stick had started becoming friends bc of his neighbor, sarah (we luv sarah), and we were actually pretty cool w each other! i saw him as an older brother, and things were prettyyy chill. well, until gatorade got jealous (rightfully so, we were talking a lot) and told puppy along with our whole friend group. stick got mad at gatorade and went on this whole rant abt how he doesnt like me or her and was instead mad at her for talking bad abt me to the whole friendgroup.

a few more random things happened, we all ended up forgiving each other, boom problem solved. right? NOPE!

boom. timejump. a few months later, me and puppy break up. all hell breaks loose. our friend group is a mess, i basically lose all of my friends who liked him (so like, all of them) and im pretty frickin sad. i was a bit of a crybaby back then, but out of all my friends who left, stick was one of the people i would talk to a lot. he wasn't the best person to talk to about everything. but it was help, and he was honestly the only person i had left, other than sarah. everyone else was too busy flocking around puppy.

uh oh. guess what. feelings start feeling things. me and stick catch feelings for each other, shocker. one day, we go to the mall, end up confessing, boom were dating. yay, i guess? WRONG! legit a week into the relationship, i found out hes been dating this other girl he met online! WUT! THE! FRICK!!!! 

obviously we break up. he tries to gaslight me. did it work? probably, dont remember. at that point tho, everyone had found out abt our relationship, and while stick was skipping school texting his online gf, i was staying in class sulking abt the breakup. EMBARRASSING. two months later, we get back together, break up after a few weeks, back to no contact. so thats the end, right? xDD ur so funny.

BOOM. another timejump. almost a year later. he hits me up, informs me he's gonna be going BACK to my school, and asks to be friends again. wut. i didnt want to care about this man anymore, so i just forgave him. kindness always shines through, kidz.

oh. neverminz. 

he starts dating gatorade. 

my bff. 

>:/

ya. i was pretty mad abt that. we get into a huge fight about it and i just ended up blocking her. even tho we were bffs for so long. so, all in all, i think this shows us one lesson. sometimes, you have to let go of things in order to move on, even if you dont want to. cutting ties hurts, especially if you've been holding onto them for so lon-...wait.

wait, you thought that was it?

BOOM!!!!1! ANOTHER TIME JUMP!! a whole year later. aka, a few months ago. specifically, january. i hit him up (my mistake i know DDD:) and ask if we could become friends again. hahaah thats so funny. so we do. at first, things were going well. we were genuinely reconnecting and getting that bond we used to have before we dated back. we were even both dating other ppl separately and were able to still talk.

until my bf totally played me and his gf cheated on him. whoops. 

once again in a vulnerable position, we've been struck again. so, we start hanging out again. yay! he wanted to come to my house, but my parents wouldve recognized him. so, we made this whole fake identity for him, pulled a clark kent and snuck him in. he had a whole full name, meeting backstory, and family.

i started skipping a lot, as did he. so, we decided, why not skip together? ill tell you why not. he went to another school at that point. the walk to it from mine was pretty hilly, wouldve taken hours. then my bag got stolen. my bookbag. with ALL my stuff. THAT was my breaking point. i was going CRAY CRAY!!! so, you wanna know what stick did? do? you? want? to? know?

he walked an hour and thirty minutes on a school day to meet up with me. and not only that. back when we first met two years ago, when he was still neighbors with sarah, he used to climb up on his roof and call me. i always said i was gonna go on that roof one day, but i never got to. then they sold the house and moved pretty far. so what'd we do?

break into his old houses backyard and sneak up on the roof, obviously.

...x-3

so, we did all of that. he walked almost two hours to see me. committed a crime so i could fulfil my hope from two years ago. made a fake identity just to be able to come into my house. and we spent a whole day together. so, if theres one lesson to get out of this, its that old flames can reconne-

he got a gf.

HE.

GOT. 

A.

GF.

AND BLOCKED ME.

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA

but seriously. these past few years with stick have been horrible, but also a pretty fun ride...am i weird for feeling that way? nah, probably not. take away from this post what you will. i thought ive learned the secrets of life everytime that man came to terrorize me. but who knows when he'll pop back up into my life?

tell me your horror ex stories in the comments! stick isn't the only ex whos made my life a living saw trap. so, if you guys liked this, maybe ill post some more...stay tuned ;-)

stay weird, emberz! addiburnzz out!