Alexa, play “Emotions” by Destiny’s Child

Sometimes I wish I wasn’t such a hopeless romantic. I sometimes think, if I had my person, things would be going much better. I watched a reading that basically told me that i have a shit ton of blockages. That I only see or am only manifesting one particular person when I should be open to all opportunities. 

At this point I feel like giving up on love. I don’t necessarily feel sad about that. Im not really sure how I feel about it. I see people all the time and they know exactly what they want and they get it. I think the Queen of Spades is on my chart so it says that I can be lazy and literally in my own way. But it also says that I have great potential and that my voice is so powerful. Which is funny since I am silent for the most part. 

I hope these feeling come and go and I can see the lessons that im meant to learn so that I can move forward. I know it starts with me. I just wish I had an answer book to life. 

This post probably just jumped to 3 different topics. Lol I just type as I think and my mind is very random. Im glad that I’ve yet to see anyone I know IRL on here. This platform gives me the power to speak as freely as I want and not feel so…anxious about what people might see of mine. I will keep moving and learning. I know what is truly mine can never be taken. Hopefully my blogs can me like a little progress journal for me and I can look back and say I made it. 

I can feel myself changing. I am proud of the progress that I have made this far. I am grateful for everything I have and what is to come. These feelings will pass and I will step into me.