Just some thoughts (light vent)

I have been wanting to make more friends online, as I am unable to make them IRL for a multitude of reasons. And its starting to really get to me, i think, as its been a hot minute since I havent had friends, as i had them for the majority of high school and then moved with my support to a diferent state, where i kinda dont do anything but work the property,t care for the animals and go to therapy appointments. 

And i know that i need friends as tehy are an integral part of being a person in the world, but i have no opportunities to,,, which really sucks. 

And another thing i noticed is a little pattern in my mental health and well being, of which i have yet to really talk about to anyone yet, save for my therapist. I keep getting these really bad hours of brain fog and confusion, only to be normal but not the same, if that makes sense? 

Like, Im me, but a different me, and i feel like that for a few days to weeks before getting the werid brain fog and going back to normal me. My therapist suggested that it might be DID, but i dont have the amnesia and distinctive identities, just like,,, different feeling me with slightly different mannerisms and interests for a time before going back to normal.

IDK man, just felt like getting this out and i missed using spacehey